forever twenty-one ;

after one long week.

Friday, August 05, 2005, 7:56 PM

wad the hell? i din post a new entry for almost one wk? hahas. im here now la. lols. so much tings happened in dis past 1 wk. hmms. dis wk was the common test week. yes! stupid mayflower came up wif dis BRIGHT IDEA of compiling all the test in one wk! hahas. lame rite? machiam make until like we taking exam like tt. lols. but anyway, it's over and i tink im most probably gonna flunk all. hahas. why? coz i din study for any of dem. im serious ok. i reli DIN STUDY. dunno wads happening to me lehs. now like no motivation like tt. juz don feel like studying. feels bored and sians wen the tot of holding a pen and doing my work comes into my mind. CANNOT! yeh ying! u cannot b like dis lor. hais. and now tt my common tests r over, my english o level orals r gonna b here. -.-''

and yes! my voice is finally back. can finally sing nicely le. but dunno y leh, now my voice like going to be gone again. abit pain leh my throat. FUCKED UP! i wanna go kbox lehs. heex. i wanna sing. it has been a long time since i've went. i tink the last time i went dere was in may. long rite? so damn long! hahas. oh ya. and i wanna go to the beach. hahas. i miss the sea. ((: anyway, i bought some new tings dis wk! heex. i bought a new mascara and a liquid eye liner. lols. bought it from the face shop wen i was shopping wif coreen. hahas. she bought a foundation pack too. heex. aiyas. she la. ask me pei her go buy tings for her laogong coz he's bday going to b here soon. lols. actually, i wanted to tell her abt wad i feel about her and her laogong de. but, nvm. i will tell her abt it wen the time is right. lols. last wk wen i went to malaysia wif my mum and jie, i bought a pair of nice shoes at a v low price and i like it v much. lols. hmms. i've gotten myself a new haircut too. my frens says tt i look like a AH GONG. ok lars. everyone said tt. but at first, wen i cut it, it looks v nice de leh. lols. amanda oso said so. wad happen to it ar? i wan tt wild look. not tt gong look. lols.

feels damn vexed about my dnt now. less den 10 days and my artefact and folio is not completed yet. dere's ALOT to do. hais. how how how? and my studies, i wan it to b good, not bad! *arghs* anyway, weijian rocks! weijian rocks! i love him so much now. hahas. i will at least post 2-3 msgs in the forum everyday to show him my support. lols. and i voted for him wen he sang last wed. and guess wad? he got in! lols. fucking jason finally went out! he's ELIMINATED. luckily weilian and junyang is safe. but now, left only weijian, weilian and junyang. i wan weijian to get into the finals, but i don reli wan junyang and weilian to b out too. *sighs* weijian! u must win! u must! i love you! heex.

i agree wif you all. RESPECT MYSELF. i gotta do tt before i earn the respect of others. but the prob is, i haf been like tt for a v long time. it seems difficult to switch back. hais. mayb do it slowly bah. it feels sad actually, to hear the same song over and over again. coz the memories replays over and over in my mind. haf i reli let go? i tink so. i hope i wun b how i used to be. lols.

i decided to end dis entry like how weijian likes to end. hahas.

cheers,
yehying.