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Mood: Excited. Quotes: “Like a rainbow fading in the twinkling of an eye, gone too soon.”
are you really a poser?
Tuesday, August 30, 2005, 12:16 PM
its fake. all fake. tings aren't getting better at all. it's getting worse. im reli tired. so tired tt i made up my mind to gif up. don tink tt dis is juz another complain of mine. dis time, i feel so determined to. it has always been like dis. it has been going on and off for such a long time alr. so long. i wan to gif up is bcoz i don wan my emotions to b drag in any furthur. i need to change my emotions so in order to do tt, i haf to step out. i dunno whether will i succeed anot. but at the very least, i will try.

i couldn't get to slp last nite. i was wide awake and i mean it. something seems to b bugging me. the thoughts ran actively arnd my mind. i tot about wad others told me before and i couldn't believe it. is it true? but how can it b? hais. i tot until i was so tired tt i fell aslp and soon, it was time for sch. school? hahas. i din go in the end. i was lying in my bed, pondering for abt 1 hr whether to go or not to. in the end, i don wan to go. i noe tt i will miss out alot if i don go, but i still choose not to go. i don wan to face wad i need to face. call me a weakling, a coward. i noe i am one.

it wun make much of a difference even if i don go anyway. the world can still luff, cry and it will still continue to revolve. it wun stop for me. i am just another tiny being. even though i step into other ppl's life and i left my footprints in thier hearts, all dis footprints r invisible. so invisible tt it's not even worth remembering. for now, i reli hope to b alone. i juz need music. tts all. tts all i need to calm me down. tinking back, i realised that there r too much tings beyond our control. such as ur intentions being misunderstood, such as wad u feel being potrayed in a wrong way, such as controlling ur emotions, such as unable to be yourself.

i hate my emotions. i hate my character. i hate myself.

im not blaming you. im juz reproaching myself. im sorry.

i hope u haf a great day.

written by,
someone easily forgotten.

- abyss of isolation -



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