yes! i am OUT. see that heading big and clear? i am NOT afraid of being laughed at for being out of the contest. at least, i dare to accept my failure and to give it a shot another time. some of you might be laughing with tears rolling down your cheeks at how naive and stupid i might be. nevermind! i shall label all of you as MY INVISIBLE ENEMY, as all of you are transparent and couldn't be bothered. i have come up with an interesting conversation to counter-attack what all of you spat in my face.
MY INVISIBLE ENEMY: oh my! look at how thick her skin is! she keeps blabbering nonsense on how she dares to accept her failure and to try it again!
ME: at least i have the courage to go on stage and sing, do you have the courage to go and experience failure? you only dare to hide in your bathroom and squeak like a mouse. LOL.
MY INVISIBLE ENEMY: she must be so mean! look at the way she blogs and the way she laughs at things!
ME: ohhh! at least i have a blog, do you? even if you have one, you can't even blog half as well as me!
MY INVISIBLE ENEMY: look at that bitch! she's so proud! she thinks she's the best.
ME: i am the best. you aren't. i have self-confidence. you don't. you only know how to pity yourself. self-pity!
*my invisible enemy fainted*
ahem. i am smart eh? lols. some of you must be thinking that i'm going bonkers and is typing and talking to myslef. it's because you don noe how to appreciate my typing. not bcoz i dunno how to blog. =))okies! enough of self-defence! well, i seriously don't find it very saddening to be eliminated. i feel kind of disappointed, but NOT sad. at least i tried, and i'm going to try again and again until i succeed. i know i can sing and my frens around me know me best. so, confidence is the key to success! is it har? LOL.
the judges for the contest was jeff wong, jamie (yeo or teo?) and some unknown person. lols. i shall not discussed my failure as it is humiliating! it pulls down my self-confidence lor. i shall only describe my success! hee. anyway, sean (yes, i know it's pronounced as SHAWN, not SEEN.) told me that he doesn't understand the meaning of my msn names. sometimes, i think typing something that other's don understand is pretty good. at least, you can expressed how u feel, be it in your blog or in your msn names, without others knowing. i blog and create msn names to vent out my feelings. i don't blog or make up names for other people to see and know what i feel. in this way, noone knows what i'm saying and yet at the same time, i can channel out how i feel.a lot of things has changed for me dis yr. be it my studies, friendships, or even relationships. some of them can be reversed, while some are irreversible. i know what can be changed and i know what can't be changed. so for those things that can still be changed, i'll try my best to change dem. for those tt can't be, and it seriously has no use to be changed, i'll just leave it aside and move on with my life. saddening eh? but tt's life. you can't be remaining where you are, trying your best to change things when they can't be changed right? so move on. the most important things is that, i will never treasure things or people who doesn't treasure me. and furthurmore, i haven found the thing that i treasure most yet.and...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AMANDA WONG! (my bestie ok.) =))a few more days before i change myself and my life. a few more days before i abandon my past and start a new phase of life. I SWEAR I WILL CHANGE. can you do the same too?
- no use looking back. just move on. -
