forever twenty-one ;

i believe in retribution.

Wednesday, November 30, 2005, 1:48 AM

dis would probably be the last entry all of you would see in the next five days. i am off to bangkok tml! so before i'm back from my bangkok trip, there will be no updates! hee. so treasure dis entry because you won't have any interesting things to hear from me in the upcoming five days! hahas. anyway, dis entry is specially dedicated to fiona. lols. if she didn't request for new updates, dis entry won't b here at all. hahas. so thank her! lols.

i shouldn't have rubbed my eyes the previous night. i rubbed until it was sore yesterday morning and i had to go out with a pair of bloodshot eyes to meet eileen and jocelyn for a shopping trip! yesterday's dressing was so simple that i felt that i wasn't myself. i don't know what got into me, but recently, i love to dress simply. meaning i love to just put on t-shirts and jeans. so not me eh? i'm those type who loves to splat thick make up on my face and wear unique clothings and now, im just wearing PLAIN T-SHIRT AND JEANS?! lols. probably because it was a special day? i was supposed to see someone, but in the end, i didn't got a chance to. no fate mahs. anyway, just leave it to god to decide when will be the day. =))

the three of us was just 'window shopping' the entire day! we did step into a few shops to browse thrgh some stuffs, but didn't bought any. lols. during the trip, i saw someone! and it was BEANIE! i mean benny. -.- it was eileen and jocelyn who spotted him at first and when they told me about it, he was already far behind. i dunno wad happened, but my first reaction was to run up to him. and during the run, i was squealing 'benny, benny, benny!' in a high pitched tone. ( i was in the middle of a shopping centre, mind you.) benny whirled around and stared at me and guess what was the next thing i did? it was smthg so absurd that i couldn't believe i did that. I SMACKED HIM ON HIS ARM and said bye. lols. wad is the FARKING PROBLEM i have ar? his fren, who is quite cute, must have thought i was mad. and not only his fren, perhaps everyone who saw me, thought so too. i did send a message of apology to benny after that. he said that i crushed his nerves! LOL.

after some great 'window shopping', we went to MY FAVOURITE PLACE, the esplanade. =)) i loved that place. it has the perfect ambience and the perfect scenery. i just wished that someone perfect can go with me to that place someday. HAHS! wishful thinking. lols. the three of us had some heart to heart talks dere and i learnt a lot of things! hee. we headed for home after that. anyway, we are going to have a splashing good time in about 12 hrs time!

you took away a lot of things from me. maybe you didn't mean to, but i hate the fact that you always have a part to play in taking away whatever that belongs to me. this isn't the first time, it happened so many times and yet i can't seemed to do anything about it. did you do it on purpose or is it bcoz destiny arranged everything to be like dis? don let me find out that you do everything on purpose, because if i do find out one day, i'll make life miserable for you.

and to the other you. don try to be like what i've mentioned earlier. don learn from that person. don learn to snatch things away from me too. if not, i'll take away everything that belongs to you. EVERYTHING.

i sound so evil eh? but, im not the only evil person in dis world. there are a lot of ppl whom i know, who appears to be affectionate, who appears to be friendly, but deep down, they are so much more evil den me. at the very least, i do state out how i feel, but some people never. so beware! they are everywhere around you. =))

- i won't curse you like how you curse me. -