forever twenty-one ;

goodbye, my liar. =))

Saturday, February 25, 2006, 4:52 PM

i feel so gray now. sighs. something horrible happened last night. something that happened to me on the 17th dec 2004, happened to me once more. i experienced that feeling all over again. it was the second time. i felt my heart, shattering into tiny pieces for the second time. the pain was so hard to bear. i had to go through it all by myself. nobody helped me out of all this, this time. i crawled out of it all by myself. i did not ask for any help from my friends. not even my closest friends. not even those whom i usually share my woes with. i was on my very own this time and i succeeded my ownself. i finally know who is my best friend, and that is myself. the other positive me in my soul is actually my best friend and the other negative me is actually my enemy. the positive part of me lead me out of all this and the negative part of me tried to pull me down. but here i am, standing tall and strong, blogging out what i feel. i am finally ok. i haven grown. finally grown up. =))

you told me sorry. what for? you don't have to. it's your choice and your decision and i respect it in the end. at the start, when i told you what i feel, you are clearly avoiding. but i'm glad you told me what you feel for the first time, ever so seriously, before you went away. at first, when others know what you told me, they feel that it's full of crap and nonsense and that you are jus plain bad. i felt so too. i felt that you are spouting nonsense and that you are jus plainly avoiding. that was what i thought at first. after reading thrgh all my past conversations with you, i realised smthg that others will never know. i didn't paid attention to the small details that happened during all those conversations. when i looked thrgh it once more, i finally found out what thy mean and what they truly reflects. i tot you have changed all this while, but looking back, you didn't changed at all. i just simply think too much. in fact, it was me who have changed. i dunno wad happened to you in the past that makes it hard for you to accept anyone entering ur life and what is preventing you from entering other's life, but for the sake of yourself, you should get rid of that feeling within you asap.

at first, when i read thrgh all the past conversations, i just kept crying. my tears just kept falling. then, when i reached a certain point, i jus kept smiling. i'm not crazy, it's just that i understand what all this means, that's y i smiled, instead of crying. you try to make it seems casual after that, but i seriously dunno how much this will weigh on you. you say that things will still be the same. will it still be? we'll see about that. one thing for sure, you are not a bad person. you aren't. i know it. ((:

a liar calling a liar a liar and that liar don't get what the liar means.

that's what you said. =))

- you are part of my memory. -

i'm shortlisted! xD

Thursday, February 23, 2006, 7:05 PM

i'm shortlisted for an interview at republic poly! omfg! i am offered a chance to get into the course i wan le! hee. so happy can? integrated events management! you seem to be one step closer to me! hahas. i'm going to treasure this chance i tell you. i must give my best shot! hahas. i'm going to talk and talk and talk as much as i can! it's something like oral right? i hope so. hahas. i can't imagine what will happen if i mess this up! i might lose the only chance for me to get into my dream course! this cannot happen and i must not let this happen! i can't let any negative thoughts bother me now. i must think positively so that i can display my fullest potential tml! this is like so much more important then o level can? hahas. i know i abit kua zhang la. but really leh! at least to me, it seems to be much more important. lols.

the person called me at about 11 in the morning and i was still sleeping then. (luckily, my voice didn't really sound sleepy. hahas. ) the guy on the next line was alex ( that's what he told me. that his name is alex. ) and the conversation goes like this :

alex: hello. is this yeh ying?

me: hello? errr ya.

alex: yehying, i'm calling from republic poly and is wondering whether can u make it tml for an interview? it's regarding the course on integrated events management.

(my eyes went zing zing and i was fully awake. i kept quiet for a few seconds cos i was STUNNED. )

alex: you're still interested in this course right?

me: ya. sure. i can make it tml. *giggling within myself*

alex: ok. den i'll see you at the old campus of republic poly tml at 3.40 pm den?

me: sure! err. do i need to prepare anything?

alex: no. you don't have to. my colleugue and i will be giving you the interview. btw, i'm alex.

me: okok. thanks! ( i am trying very hard not to die of happiness. )

alex: thanks yehying. bye.

me: bye!

once the fone is being put down, i am already laughing and squealing like mad can? i immediately call my sister to tell her the good news! ahahahas. after that, i called my friends one by one. hahahs! when i went online, i told some of my other frens abt it too! soooo high can??? now, i need to go think of what are the questions thy might ask me tml. even though they say i don't have to prepare anything, it's better to right? i read up more on the courses already and now i need to brainstorm for the questions thy might ask! i'm going to bring all my certs and all my testimonials there! fucking chris ask me not to think of any questions as they jus wan to noe my personality better and that i don't have to bring anything along. he ask me to "BE YOURSELF" and that i jus have to "BRING MYSELF THERE". hahas. i'm bringing myself there ar! along with all those certs ar! i'm also being myself cos being kaisu is part of my personaility!

if you don't feel happy for me, den fuck off. i feel happy for myself and that's enough. so get lost now. don't spoil my mood.

- i must rise up again. i must be the best. -

feeling better. so much better.

Wednesday, February 22, 2006, 2:55 PM

i'm ain't that depressed already. seriously, i'm feeling better. so much better. why eh? cos i sort out my own thinking and i have beeing going out with a few of my great friends this few days. lols. on monday, i went out with eileen and jocelyn and on tuesday, i went out with amanda, claire, eileen and jocelyn. being out with ur frens is good. someohow, they make you forget abt ur troubles and everything spells FUN with them around! ^^

i was online, chatting with eileen on msn on a usual monday afternoon when she asked me out. jocelyn wanted to go out too so all of us decided to go escape at first. somehow, we changed plans and decided to go to my fav place, the esplanade! cool eh? the meeting time was supposed to be at 3.30 pm but i reached only at abo lut 4 pm. i was the last one to arrived and all of them asked me to treat dem drinks. i didn't in the end cos i am well-known for my stingyness! ( is there such a word? ) in return for that, i'm going to say sorry in here! I'M SORRY FOR BEING LATE. lols. we shopped around city link and suntec city before making our way to marina square. we went to pei jin's shop to find him and i bought some things from his shop cos there's a sale going on there! up to 70% off leh! so cheap can? mus go his shop buy! the design there are nice and it's cheap. it's worth the money leh! hahas. i bought a tank top and a tube. each for arnd $8 only. the design are pretty obsence de. LOL. why? cannot issit? i like ma. hahas. we sat and talked at esplanade before heading over to the nearby roadside stalls to have dinner. eileen and i had black pepper and chili crabs while jocelyn had stingray! we shared a dish of kang kong together! very nice can? the price is pretty cheap also. i paid arnd $15 for such a yummy dinner. hahas. pei jin was also nice enuff to accompany us during dinner and whenever he is free. thanks ar! lols. we went home together after that. hee.

pictures taken! =))

[ guess who is this? it's SHI XIN HUI! damn it. eileen and i look hideous beside her. =(( ]

[ my eyes looks so wierd can? sore eye sucks. =\ ]

[ pictures taken from the top always turns out better. x) ]

[ sneak shot by eileen. hahas. i'm ugly. =(( ]

[ somehow, i jus look wierd in this. lols. ]

[ ahhh. this is so much better! =D ]

[ ah neo and me! hahas. ]

[ gorgeous looking babes. ahahahs. ]

[ let's try taking it from the top! hahas. not bad leh! ]

[ told ya! i love pics taken from the top! ahahas. ]

[ oh gosh. i'm acting cute with a pink hat on. ]

[ finally a proper pic w/o those fancy actions! hahas. ]

[ wah seh! i look like bus driver leh! ahahahs. ]

[ taken outside marina square. i call it 'the ray of hope'. ((: ]

[ eileen! don whack me. -.- ]

[ isn't it beautiful? i mean the scenery and the both of us. hahas. ]

the next day was a day of fun at the beach! we went to sentosa's siloso beach to swim and to sun tan! hahas. we met at 9 am in the morning and i was half an hr late. i was the last to reach again. -.- we took a shuttle bus to sentosa and wen we reach siloso beach, it was already past 10 in the morning. there wasn't much people there. we played beach volley ball and we swam in the sea. hahas. there was this group of guys who asked us to join them for a game of volleyball, but i said NO. we dunno how to play ma. will sia suay de lor. lols. there was this tourist who wanted to take a picture with us, but i said NO too. dunno later he take the pics go post where. lols. better don lor! lols. we ate a lot of snacks and talked a lot when we were there. hahas, it was fun la! claire keep kao pei-ing that her skin wasn't tan enuff. lols. she was the only wan who wanted a good tan! the rest of us are trying our best to hide from the sun and putting on sun block lotion. hahas. but sadly, i become tan! why sia? and the worst thing is that i lost my ipoddy! it's a nano ok. bye bye ipoddy. $300 gone. =(( surprisingly, i didn't feel very sad and to my surprise, i didn't even cry! maybe bcos i haf the recurring tot that no matter how hard i cry, i can never get it back. so no use getting sad over such stuffs yeah? might as well think of a solution instead of sitting down there bawling. lols. we bathe and left sentosa at around 3 in the afternoon. den we went to orchard to eat and shop until evening. all of us was so tired that we went home after that. i was supposed to meet up my work mates for dinner but i didn't in the end cos i was really too tired. sorry girls!

more pictures taken at sentosa! =))

[ no make up on. messy hair-do. i'm better off dead. ]

[ no wonder claire says i look ugly when my hair is wet. -.- ]

[ that's eileen's hand and me. lols. omfg! my sore eye! ]

[ i still look hideous with the flash on. *humphs* ]

[ ohhh. there's a hand behind and ah neo is walking by. hello buddies! i'm taking a picture! -.- ]

[ i like this picture. lols. claire and me, fresh from the bathroom! ]

[ mandie bestie! you turned away before the shot is taken! *slaps forehead* ]

[ eileen and me! what is aw aw thinking behind? hahahas. ]

so what? i'm seriously not upset. there are better things for me to do then thinking about such things all day long. hahas. i mean, i ONCED liked him, but not NOW. he is just part of a memory i once had. he has his own life to lead and i have my own. no strings attached. not anymore. everybody keeps thinking that i will feel sad and is asking me to cheer up, but i'm not feeling any sadness at all. i would haf felt sad if she is still my fren and i still love him. but sadly, i don love him and she isn't my fren anymore. so why care? as for my frens, thank you. thanks for showing care and concern, but i'm fine. hahas. esp to pei jin and eileen. thanks! =))

happy birthday to chris!

and..

happy birthday to my elder brother!

- do you think i care? -

a life without love.

Saturday, February 18, 2006, 2:41 PM

pardon me for being such a nuisance, but i have to blog out my feelings again. you are probably the only listener that i can relate to for the moment. the only one who can hear me out. the only one who cares to know how i feel. you are probably the only one i can turn to now.

this is the only place where you can find my tears, my laughters, my anger. in fact, everything that i truly feel can only be found here. it's not that i can't find any friends who is willing to lend a listening ear, it's just that i feel they don't seem to really be there. everyone is still around, but it just seems that they are very far away from me. maybe i'm thinking too much, but i seriously feel that i'm alone. very alone. you don't have to come up to tell me how much you care, i just need you to let me to feel that you are there. but so far, noone has given me that kind of feeling. how i wished i am schooling now, at the very least, i can still feel my own presence among my friends. i can still relate to them like how i used to. now? all i can do is to type it out here, to let others know how i feel. a wish can only be a wish. whether can it be fufilled is another thing, entirely another thing.

i'm tired of putting up a strong front in front of my friends, telling them that 'i'm fine' and that 'i'll be ok'. sometimes when they ask me, are you ok? i feel like telling them that i'm not ok and beg them to hear me out. i feel like pouring out my woes to whoever cares. but i'm surprised, as i can't anymore. maybe my friends are right, maybe i have changed. i have changed to someone who can be happy in front of my friends and be crying at home. i have changed to become more hot-headed and mean. why? am i trying to prove to others that i'm not weak at all? what do i gain from all this? sighs.

chris is attached already and you know what? i'm the one who sparked off his relationship with another girl. one simple thing i did can bring two person together. lols. isn't it great? i'm like an angel eh? hahas. i wasn't feeling very good before that cos my own love life is like SHIT and i still managed to 'bring them together'? come to think of it, i'm pretty cool eh? but wierdly, it jus pulled my mood down much much more. i cried after that. i know clearly that i cry not bcos i'm jealous, but bcos i haf the thought that why is god so unfair? why can't my own love life be a little better? but it's a blessing that they can be together. look at me now. hais. he's so much better off then me lor. i just hope chris would treasure her and that he wouldn't toy with her feelings like how he did to other girls. i won't let him off if he ever does that cos girls should not be bullied! hahas. =))

and as for you, why are you coming to me again? stop doing things for the sake of doing, can't you do it from the bottom of you heart? sighs. it's ok i guess. i'll let time prove everything this time. i'll take one step at a time and see how things go. hopefully, everything will work it's way out soon. even if it doesn't, i'll find my way out of all this. i will. but i can promise, that you won't see me treating you like how i used to. so no use treating me like how you used to. even though a small part of me feels happy, another part of me is strongly pushing it away. sighs.

amanda, you said that you're disappointed in me. if i were you and if i had such a fren, i will be disappointed too. disappointed to have a fren who is unwilling to change her perspective of love since years back and till now, has never intend to change. i'm disappointed in myself too. i am.

- i shall bury everything within me this time. -

just feeling pissed.

Friday, February 17, 2006, 2:58 AM

sighs. i'm seriously down now. it's been a long time since i've last felt like that. i was already feeling rotten for the past few days. but i choose to ignore it and stop the sadness from growing. it was going pretty well. i managed to keep my emotions under control and i was able to put up a strong front in front of my friends. but i just kinda breakdown today? hais.

firstly, it was that fucking VALENTINE'S DAY. ( yup! it's the season of love! FUCK OFF CAN? ) couples everywhere. hugging, kissing, whatever fuck la. i wanted to hide at home, hide far away from the crowd. i'm very pathetic ok? i'm spending my 18th year of valentine's day alone. read that big and clear ya? ALONE. so i had to stay at home. shit you if u're luffing at me. i hope all the chocolates and flowers you get has lots of worms in dem! i couldn't escape from this dreadful day as i had to meet lynnda to check out the courses at MDIS. poor me. this day seriously brought down my mood a lot. i hate FEB 14TH. ANTI-VALENTINE!

then, it was this asshole who said that he FORGOT to come out when i asked him out on feb 14th. he said he was too busy and he just plainly FORGOT. what a great excuse! don't wan just say don't wan lar! say forgot! come out with a better excuse can? i would have scolded you like hell if you aren't someone of importance to me. just my luck to fall in love with someone like you. what can i do? ENDURE LARHS. this ass den made me felt a little better by saying that he will meet up with me the next day. so nice of him can? guess wad? IT'S OFF AGAIN. by this time, i am already feeling very miserable ok. why can't you just shut up and go away? might as well don't make any promises cos all you know is how to break them. maybe i'm just too stupid to think it's a promise, when to you, it's just a casual comment. the greatest thing about this ass? he can still ask me "so how?" after so much things had happened. oh ya! he was even much nicer to say "i dunno." wen i asked him back. he's making me really mad. hopping mad to be exact. so what? you don even care. if you aren't important, i wouldn't haven even bothered to be pissed off at you. sighs. don't you ever get it? or are you jus simply avoiding? hais.

bcos of all this, i was in a pretty unstable mood this few days. then, it finally erupted tonight. all in one shot. cool eh? you can see from my msn nick that i was pretty hot-headed. there was lots of FUCK here FUCK there. do i hear someone calling me uncivilised? FUCK OFF. =)) there was frens who really cared. i'm sure i don't haf to mention any names. you know who you are. thanks to all of you. both girls and guys. if i offended you in anyway, i'm sorry. i didn't mean to. but there is one person that i must really say sorry larhs...

CHRIS NG CHONG XING!
( i think he'll get the shock of his life if he ever sees his name in bold in my blog! )

my bad. shouldn't have showed him attitude when he called to talked to me just now. kinda made him pissed off aggain i guess. you're right! i made him pissed off two days ago when he approached me to tell me his problems. i was too sleepy then cos he called when i was sleeping like a log. so i was kinda unwilling to hear him talk? then, he got pissed off. luckily, he didn't bear any grudges then. and as for today, i showed him some really bad attitude cos i was in a rotten mood. wonder is he going to bear grudges with me this time? sighs.

some people can be really NOSEY eh? poking thier stinky butt into other people's business. don't be so kpo can? FUCK OFF LA. go find better things to do la. mayb start milking a cow or smthg? hahahahas! i am so freaking mean! xD

- i ought to get a grip on myself. -

my dark side.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006, 11:19 PM

aye. as you can see, i've changed my blogskin. it's time to make some changes to this blog i guess. the last time i changed my skin was way before the o levels started. now that the exams are over and the long awaited results are out, it's time to make some changes. hahas. if i'm not wrong, i saved this skin sometime ago. i was thinking of changing a new skin today and was browsing thrgh some skins when i suddenly came across this. i matched it with this soothing melody that i found attached to some other skin. hahas. i ripped it out and matched it with this! perfect ain't it? it gives me a feeling of suspense. makes me feel that life is full of surprises and things are unpredictable. you can never know what it coming around the corner. the road ahead is long and bleak. it seems like you can never know what is coming and what is installed for you at the end as the winding road goes on. but i believe, that the process of travelling down this road will be memorable. =))

i'm currently on a winding road that has several winds and routes for me to choose. i don't know where each route will take me and i don't know what will be waiting for me at the end, but i know that during the process of making a decision and the travel down the winding road, i will learn a lot of things and gain precious memories that will stay with me forever. i know that the journey will be beautiful even if there is a lot of difficulties along the way. the most important thing is, i shall learn from all this and stand up once more. that's the way life is, isn't it? ups and downs are just parts and parcel of a person's life. you learn from your mistakes, not hide from them. =))

the entire two paragraphs i've written are the thoughts i have about my o level results. i know i didn't put in much effort before the exam so i should haf expected the outcome. overall, i might not have done badly, but i know that i'm capable of getting better results. since i couldn't prove it this time round, i shall prove it again when i'm given another chance. i'm no weakling. i shall succeed. amanda is right. i shouldn't blame god for giving me such results. i didn't study much and i manage to get such results is already considered as a blessing, so i should be thankful. but neverthless, i won't give up here. i will strive for an even better future. i shouldn't say "i will", i should say "i must".

as for you, what do i consider you as? a fren? i don tink so. deep down, you have always been an enemy and you will continue to be my greatest motivation to excel in life. we are just strangers who don even bother to say a word of hi when we see each other. i feel jealoused, enraged, uncomfortable when i see you accomplishing things before me. i hate to see you winning. call me a wimp or whatever shit. i don't care. i wan to win you. be it looks, friends, relationships, studies or even anything! i wan to win you!

pardon me for letting the devil within me being unleashed. i need a place to channel out my thoughts and the best place would be my blog. like what i've always said, this is the only thing that will never betray you and this is the only place where you can find trust. everyone has a devil within them, so don't give me that kind of face when you read my blog. don't let that disgusting thought run through your mind. you are exactly the same as me. you have a devil within you too. the only difference? you try to hide that disgusting devil within yourself and you refuse to let it out. you refuse to let it be shown. with this difference, it makes you even more scary. it makes you much more evil den me. cos you choose to hide it and you allow it to grow within you, never be seen to whoever you know. i showed mine already, where's yours?

- can you unleashed your dark side to all? -

my chinese new year. =))

Thursday, February 02, 2006, 6:26 PM

your eyes aren't playing tricks on you, i'm here to update my blog. lols. i have not slept a wink for the past two days you know. why? cos i have been out with some friends who behave like zombies. lols. they seriously don't have to slp de lor. not getting any rest for two days is actually nothing. after knowing them, i have experienced things far more worse den that. like not slping for more den three days? smthg like that! lols.

anyway, this chinese new year was a little 'not that high', when being compared to my previous ones. i had my reunion dinner with my family and my uncle's family the day before new year eve. don't ask me why is my reunion dinner not being held on new year eve, cos i seriously don't have a clue. lols. i even had to go to work after that lor! so tiring can? -.- i went shopping with lynnda after work and was practically drifting around cos i was kinda tired. ( fyi, it's new yr eve when i went shopping with lynnda and all the shops are still opened. ) i didn't bought anything cos i seriously couldn't keep my eyes opened to see the clothes on display. lols. lynnda bought quite a lot of things though. hahas. anyway, i went to bed at arnd 4 pm in the afternoon and wen i woked up again, it was already the first day of chinese new year! ( mind you, this means that i slpt thrgh the countdown and stuffs like that. )

on the first day of new year, we went over to my grandma's hse as usual. actually, we shouldn't be going over this year, but we still went in the end. it is seriously v boring there. i don't mean to be bad, but it really is boring. lols. i don't talk to my cousins nowadays and neither do i play with them like how i used to when i was younger. sometimes i do wonder, how can i be on such good terms with them when i was younger, but as we grow older, we stopped talking and all that replaces the fun, is silence and a sense of awkardness? that's really saddening. hearing all my friends talking about how much fun they had with thier cousins during the festive period somehow made me felt empty. i had lunch at my grandma's hse and after collecting my ang baos, i left the house to meet chris. somehow, i ended up waiting for him for an hour AGAIN! going out with him can be very tiring you know, cos you need to wait for him everytime. i am v PISSED OFF of cos. ( you try waiting for people everytime larhs! see how you will react. -.- ) anyway, we went to his tai ma's house to bai nian together with his brother. his brother really don look like him sia! his bro is tall and bulky and chris is like so short and puny? LOL. his tai ma is seriously v old. i think she's 90 plus and she can still talk alot sia! but the only problem is that she seems to be repeating what she says every now and then, asking chris they all the same questions repeatedly. hahas. in the end, they all wanted to leave so badly that they came up with a stupid plan to get out of the hse! wahahas.

when we finally managed to leave the hse, his bro went and meet his gf while both of us took a cab down to tampines mall to meet his fren, ah jiao. it's a waste of money you know! his tai ma's hse is in tampines and we are taking a cab down to tampines mall. how stupid can that be? but it's ok, cos i don need to pay for the cab fare. -.- we went and bought tickets to watch the movie, cheaper by the dozen 2 and we had dinner at pizza hut. well, i have to say, ah jiao is super funny can? he is abit sot sot de and is always doing funny actions to make us laugh. lols. he walks like he is on drugs or smthg lor. lols. anyway, after that, we went and watched the movie lor. the movie is quite funny la. lols. the two of dem went and played lan after that and i went home. i didn't wan to tag along cos watching them play lan can be so boring lor! i once watched chris and his fren play lan until i fell aslp. for three hrs you know! -.-

on the second day, i stayed at home until afternoon before heading to marina bay with my mum. she wanted to go dere to see CHUN DAO HE PAN. i've been going dere since i was young lor. lols. every new year die die mus go dere de. hahas. we took a bus from woodlands all the way to marina bay. during the ride, i got a call from chris and he asked me out to watch a movie with ah jiao and him. i said okay and told him that i can only make it after 8 pm. after that, my mum and i had our dinner at kenny rogers. i have to say, kenny rogers decor is getting bad, i prefer the old, sentimental atmosphere it had in the past. now, it has become too trendy and upbeat. the food that they served has kinda deproved too. =\ but i'm happy, cos thy forgot to charge me for the drinks! wahahahas. cheapo? i know. but i'm happy! xD we walked over to the place where CHUN DAO HE PAN is being held every year, and was surprised to find it EMPTY!!! omfg! did it vanished into thin air or what? we had no choice but to walk over to my fav place, the esplanade. when we were there, my mum kinda talk until she cried? i told you all before le. i love the ambience of the esplanade as it can seriously tug at your heartstrings. i think my mum somehow got affected by the ambience ba. anyway, i walked my mum to the busstop before going to tampines mall AGAIN to meet chris and ah jiao. both of dem made me v pissed off cos i had to wait for dem again! knn. its was like so freaking late and dere was this malay guy who kept following me lor! i had to risk my life to wait for dem to finish up a game? okies. i noe im abit kua zhuang. but neverthless, i had a perfectly good reason to blow my top! anyway, we watched i not stupid too and it's a nice show. lols. we wandered arnd after the movie and i went home while they went and played lan AGAIN. -.-

i was at home, slping for like 4 hrs when i suddenly got a call from an unknown number. it was chris and ah jiao. chris's hp didn't have any batt left so he used ah jiao's hp to call me and thy asked me out. at first, i didn't wan to go de. it's the third day of chinese new year and it's like 8 am in the morning lor! i had to drop by at my bro's hse for lunch around noon too. but chris used smthg to threaten me, so i went. =/ thy promised that i didn't haf to wait, but when i rched dere, i had to wait for like 5 mins cos thy r still in the lan shop and thier game isn't finished yet. -.- after that, ah jiao went home so chris and i waited for him downstairs. chris was like uttering nonsense all the way about ppl walking by and also about those ppl who are playing scoccer. mind you, he didn't speak v softly and we are within hearing distance so people might have heard what he said. what i'm worried is that he might get beaten up and thus, my life might be endangered too. the best way to solve this? i treat him as invisible and didn't reply him, but he can continue to talk non-stop. -.- soon, ah jiao came down WITHOUT BATHING and we went to hougang bus interchange. before that, i made a call to talk to lynnda and both of dem acted like monkeys, trying to snatch my phone to talk to lynnda. lols. ah jiao was somehow attracted to lynnda and we asked her out to meet us for a movie and dinner later. lols. after putting down the fone with her, ah jiao started to ask me to call lynnda and asked me tings abt her. anyway, it was v v v funny! hahas. i didn't went to my bro's hse for lunch in the end cos smthgs happened and the whole family couldn't make it in the end. sighs. anyway, we went to cineleisure to wait for lynnda and she came really late. somehow, chris was kinda unhappy and even the excited ah jiao seemed abit quiet. but things was better after that. =))

we had dinner at pastamania and all of dem complained about the food dere. esp ah jiao! cos he din wan to eat dere de ma. lols. is i say wan to eat de, den chris jiu say go eat lor. anyway, i haf to tell you all, before we ate at pastamania, chris and ah jiao alr ate when we were waiting for lynnda. ah jiao ate three times lor! first round, he ate kuay chap. second round? he had pig organ soup. third round, he had pizza!!! -.- we wanted to go to kbox after that, but the price was too costly. it will bore a huge hole in our pockets. $48+++ for three hrs! madness sia! lols. so chris came up with a very lame idea and that is we go for a movie marathon. i don noe y, but everyone said "ok". lols. but it's cheaper than kbox by a lot! we watched three movies althogether. matchpoint, memoirs of a geisha and the heirloom. matchpoint is a stupid show that ah jiao insists on watching and guess what happened when we went into the cinema? he is the first to fall aslp. he snored very loudly during the show too. -.- the show is so seriously boring! it has a boring start, an "ok" climax and a stupid ending. if you are those very ahem "sex-driven" person, mayb you can watch the show la. it might entertain you abit. lols. memoirs of a geisha is a MUST WATCH! it's super nice i tell you! ah jiao slpt throughout the second movie cos he watched it before alr. don think that it's bcos he is nice den he re-watched it with us de lor. i had to do SOMETHING to him before he is willing to watch it with us. lols. as for the heirloom, it's the most boring horror movie i ever watched. it's not scary at all and i almost slept while watching the show. lynnda, on the other hand, was scared out of her wits! if you ever see me screaming during the movie, it wun be because of the movie, it's bcos i was shocked when lynnda suddenly grabbed me by the arms. -.-

after the movie marathon, we walked all the way from somerset to city hall lor! it's super far can? no choice la. cos it's three in the morning. dere's no buses or mrt for us to take. hahas. we went to a lan shop AGAIN lor! can die la i tell you! lynnda was still pretty ok with it, but i dunno why i just can't take it lor! arghs! but luckily, lynnda and i got to surf the net dere. so i guess that it wasn't that boring la. lols. ah jiao left first and when the remaining three of us wanted to go home, tragedy struck! i couldn't find chris hp in my bag. I LOST HIS HP!!! omfg. how careless can i be? a handphone leh! y i never lose mine sia? shit me la. he bought it for less den a mth and i lost it! arghhh! we had to walk all the way back to cineleisure to see whether is it dere and the security guards told us that the cinema will only be opened at 10 am. we walked all the way back to douby ghaut's mac to eat our breakfast and we took a short nap dere. lols. chris didn't scold me at all lor! den he say it's ok. omg! makes me more guilty only lor. he told me that he was angry only at the start, but later, he didn't mind le. sometimes i do wonder, is he human??? handphone lost leh! he can still be so happy sia. i seemed to be more anxious den him lor. -.- after that, we walked back to cine and his hp couldn't be found. shit lor! i can die on the spot i tell you. hais. the three of us went to toa payoh and he got himself a new hp. he do tings v fast eh? hp lost liao, immediately buy de. lols. lynnda went home after that and i was supposed to drop by his hse to help him settle some things regarding his hp, but i didn't go in the end. DON ASK WHY. all you need to know is that, i am fuming at the end. =))

it was home sweet home after that! my chinese new year is seriously so EXCITING eh? too exciting for me actually. i almost died from guiltyness lor. anyway, shall update again soon ya?

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