i am being told to update by many people ... so here i am. =)

one short week has passed but many things have happened. for this past one week, i missed another day of school, managed to skip two UTs and being terribly late for almost all the lessons. isn't it great? ((:

i am really upset and disappointed in myself. i realised that i always know what is wrong with my behaviour and character but i have never really taken the intiative to improve myself. at least, i'm going to get moving and adopting some changes that will benefit me for good. i hope it's not too late this time. but seriously, i don't know where to start. there's so much loopholes that i don't know where to start getting it fixed. but i think i'll start from my studies first. i think it's the most important thing for now.

well, no more of such stuffs starting on monday. i'm serious this time. no more slacking and there will be no more putting-my-maths-till-the-next-day thought from monday onwards. i am going to work hard. yes i am. yes i will. that includes being punctual for lessons and working hard in maths and in sch. we'll see how it goes. =)

anyway, i went out with amanda and eileen today. i met up with them at dhoby ghaut around 6 in the evening. we went and had dinner at macdonals and we had a good chat there. at first, they wanted to eat yoshinoya. )): so bad of them right? they knew that i hate yoshinoya yet they want to eat there. lols. but luckily we ate at mac in the end. we saw a bunch of gay looking guys there and they are seriously gayish. they dress like girls and act like girls. i have nothing against such people but sometimes it just feels wierd to see guys dressing like this. neverthless, we can't blame them bcos they are born like this. but i especially hate it when those gays turn out to be cute guys! argh! i feel SO wasted can? god, pls don let cute guys be gay. )):

after our dinner, we went to cathay cineplex to catch the movie click. it turned out to be a really nice movie. be sure to catch it in cinemas. it's touching and at the same time funny. i give it 4 stars. ((:

we shopped around at plaza sing before the movie started and i bought a new box of foundation from the face shop. my old one is finishing soon. but the freaking thing is i left it with eileen and i forgot to get it back from her when we went home. lols. we were rushing for the last train and it kinda slipped our mind. hahas. neverthless, it was an enjoyable day. too bad claire couldn't join us bcos she's working. luckily i met up with her and eileen last monday already. needless to say, i met up with amanda last wednesday too. i had lotsa fun. ((:

after this one week, i've seen true colours of the people around me. some good and some bad. i'm already kinda numbed by this fact. i just don't really like people commenting when they don't know much about me. i'm in no position to comment if i dont know much about others either. unless what others say sounds logical and makes sense or if the comment can improve me as a person, if not, i think it will be wise to make sure that you understand me before making any comments. i realised you can't depend on anyone except for yourself. what's important is that you don't feel guilty and you are clear in whatever you are doing. answer to no one but yourself. i have my bad points and i'm willing to change, what about you? the one who is reading this now. are you willing to? ((:

don't worry people. i'm not angered. i'm just having some thoughts in my mind. i wish to voice it out and make sure my thoughts are a little more organised. i guess the truest and closest friends i can have ... is those from my sec sch. i have found them. =)

one more thing, I LOVE MY DADDY because he came down to fetch he's little girl even if it means scarificing he's sleep. ((:

many loves to you dad. <3

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