i came online and was shocked to see cynthia's msn nick as:

OEI YEHYING ARE YOU JOINING SUPERSTAR?

well, good question asked because i don't really know the answer myself.

after that k session with amanda, claire and eileen. i felt that maybe i couldn't really sing. there are people who can sing really well. (for instance, amanda) i feel kind of inferior when i am being compared with them. i don't know? i was so upset that i cried that day. i feel inferior and that my confidence is slowly being drained away. ( bestie, you don't have to feel bad. (: )

this time, i really don't know whether should i join or not. i don't even know what to sing if i were to join the competition. futhurmore, it's just two more months to the commencement of my o level maths examination and i just completed revising chapter one. do i really have the time and energy for this?

i don't even know what are my dreams and what do i really want to be in the future. to be frank, i have never really imagine myself being a superstar. needless to say, taking it as my career for a lifetime. although i love singing, i still prefer being another ordinary person. when i say ordinary, i really mean being ORDINARY.

i'm not very sure on what is the next step i should take. i need someone to guide me.

so ...

COMMENTS PLEASE. ( make sure they are truthful okay? you can talk about my singing ability too. :D )

your help is greatly appreciated by shittylicious. (:

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