ok here we go again.

i was talking to hui hua in msn about this particular movie that will be launched in cinemas soon. it's called DEATH NOTE and she wants me to watch it with her. due to the obvious fact that I LOVE HER ALOT, of course i agreed. she is like another amanda in my life lor. aha. just that they are of different categories. I LOVE AMANDA TOO HOKAY? :D

we started discussing about it and i asked her to tell me the storyline of the movie. at first, she didn't want to tell me bcos she was afraid that i might not want to watch the movie anymore. aiyooo. of cos wun laa! hahahaha. :x then, half way through when she was telling me about the movie, i drew something for her.



HAHAHAHAHAHA.

cute right? but hui hua don't think it's cute lor. she said that she want to block me on msn and she really did leh. but she unblocked me in less than a min. aha. see my hua hua is so nice can? (:

i went out with cynthia on wednesday. SUPPOSEDLY, THERE WAS A KBOX TRIP. but it was suddenly cancelled without me knowing. so wierd huh? i'm like one of the last few people to know. even the people who DID NOT went to kbox, knew it before i do. (:

anyway, i think i really owe a big apology to angeline and delia cos things didn't turned out as planned. sorry ya? we'll go together the next time. (:

i met up with cynthia after school at causeway point while wardha, hui hua and haira accompanied me to wait for her. thanks girls for staying behind to hear me rant. i was seriously pissed off by what happened and i was really glad that they had the heart to stay behind.

cynthia and me went to swensen to had some late afternoon snacks. we ordered fries and i ate sticky chewy chocolate ice cream while she ate chocolate crunch ice cream. aiya so fucking nice can? both of us were in a fucking bad mood that day and we felt fucking pissed. so somehow, ice cream really made us fucking happier! aha.

cynthia told me a lot about what has happened to her for that one week. although we are apart for just one short week, i can really feel how much she has gone through all this while. it actually pains my heart to see her like this. as a friend, i couldn't do anything for her except to sit down and hear her talk. i actually felt quite useless at that point in time because as a friend, i couldn't do much for her. i just hope that she will be fine and that sense of emptiness will be washed away from her soon. i don't wish to see her suffocating in such an environment and i hope that all will be well for her. so god, please bless her with the power to go through all this.

cynthia, this is the first time i've seen you tear. to be frank, when i saw those tears, i really felt that they were precious bcos i've never seen you tear in front of me before. thanks for missing me as a friend and crying bcos you miss me. i miss your presence too and yes, you are special to me. noone can replace you as cynthia. take care, my friend. (:

after that, we met up with my bestie, amanda and we shopped around causeway point. it was fun seeing cynthia and amanda meeting up for the first time. there are one of the few people who are real special to me. (: then, cynthia met up with ken while amanda and me went to watch the show, john tucker must die. it's a nice show laa. overall, it's worth the money. (:

amanda is watching goong lately. she loves it so much lor! i told you it will be nice bestie. ahahahaha. :D

i seriously dislike people who just offers a lame excuse for cancelling an event. the excuse is obviously not true at all. you know it and so do i. so what are you trying to hide? if you have any displeasure or complains about me, voice it out to me personally. i might be stubbon and i might be fierce, but i won't be that bad to turn you away when you have something to say about me. be it good or bad, you can just tell me straight in the face. at least i do listen and if i feel that what you say makes sense, i will improve myself and i will apologise if i'm at fault. don't go around gossiping with others and influencing your opinions on others. i seriously hate that. most importantly, i don't even know what exactly happened in the first place because nobody bothered to say when i asked. if you don't approach me to trash it out, i won't approach you to talk either. this only reflects one thing about you: you don't treasure friendship. if you don't even care, then why should i?

one last thing, don't go around hiding from me. i find it really stupid, seriously. even if you don't want to talk, you don't have to go to the extent of avoiding. if you dare to do such things, why are you so afraid of hiding in the first place?

people say that i'm immature, i think you're far more worse than me.

think about it.

- please grow up -