she's back at it again.

it has been happening for more than a year. read the words carefully. MORE THAN A YEAR. i cannot stand her anymore. i have been keeping this sense of hatred for her within me for more than a year. i detest her to the core of my heart. i hate her totally. i feel like ripping off her skin and breaking her bones. i want her dead. i want her to suffer for her entire lifetime for the hurt she caused. i want her to die for the pain she inflicted on me.

yes ... i want her dead.

it all started when we were still "friends".

she snatched things away from me. one by one. the things that initally belonged to me was taken away by her. things that i should have. things that i owned. she took them all away. just with a snap of her fingers. just like that. she got the things that i am dying to have. the things that i yearn to have.

first, it was my best friend. she's always acting cute and trying to be innocent. she's always trying to get into her good books. i hate the sight of that. i hate the way she talks to my bestie and i hate the innocent remarks that she is always making. i hate the way she looks at my bestie with those damn so called "puppy eyes" of hers.

my bestie might not hate you and she might still be friends with you. but so? i still hate the intense feeling that you are always giving me. the feeling that you always try to get close to her and you are always trying to replace me in her heart. damn you bitch. you will never succeed.

then, it was the guy i liked for five years. she threw herself at him and got him within a few months. she knew that i like him. she knew it deep down. but she still got together with someone i liked for five years.

if you're my "friend", would you do such a thing to inflict pain on me? by right, you shouldn't. but you did. you just ignored how i felt and threw your slutty self at him. no wonder both of you broked up. this is your karma. you're getting hurt in this game of love.

the next thing she tooked away was one of the person whom i loved deep down. the person whom i still love now. the person whom i love but yet i can't get together with.

so what if you are the person who introduced me to him? i don't fucking care. the pain you inflicted and the damage you have caused to me is enough to cover up for all the "good" that you have ever done for me. you never did much for me anyway. everything that i had with him, from the memories to the time we spent together is something that i worked for with my own hands. all you do is to constantly try to keep in contact with him and to keep flirting with him in msn. what can you possibly do other than exchanging testimonials with him in friendster and whispering sweet nothings into his ears? what can you do other than being a slut?

seriously, you should stop being such a bitch. stop throwing yourself at the people who are associated to me and my friends. don't think i don't know what you are up to. you always appear "innocent" and "shy" to the people around you and you are always acting cute to give the impression that you are innocent when you are not. you are full of tricks and you are always up to something. you go around telling people about what you didn't do and you push the blame to us to make you look good. but who would actually know that you are always viewing our profile on purpose so that we would view back your profile and you would show us the tricks that you have up your sleeve.

look at how cunning and bitchy you are. what a slut.

yes i might be crude and evil in typing all this out. but seriously, i don't fucking care. think from how i feel and you would understand why am i blogging all this out. i hope you are reading this.
go on. tell it to your friends and let them stand up for you. that's what you always do right? gaining symphathy votes and appearing like an angel. only stupid and ignorant people would fall for those lowly tricks that you're up to.

BITCH!

SLUT!

WHORE!

claire told me not to type out your name. it's not that i'm scared of you. if i can type out such an entry, it already proves that i don't fucking care. she just don't want me to fall into your trap.

i curse you
i seriously curse you
i have never hate someone so much before
be glad that you are the first

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