forever twenty-one ;

goodbye 2006. (:

Sunday, December 31, 2006, 10:37 PM

it's the last day of the year and i'm finally here to blog. if i don't update any sooner, i seriously think i'll be killed by people like aqilah and fiona. (don't believe me? check out the tag board and you'll get what i mean. )

but don't you think it's kinda pathetic? i mean sitting in front of the computer on the last day of the year and blogging isn't close to the word FUN in my dictionary. i don't know if it works for you but in this case, it certainly doesn't work for me. unfortunately, claire is sick and amanda has something on today so we had to cancel the countdown event this year. nevertheless, it's okay for me. staying at home on new year's eve isn't as bad as you all think it might be. i have been doing this for many years of my life. i just miss the fireworks and the fun and laughter i can have with my friends. anyway, i was astounded to see a minority of people online. i guess everyone's outside celebrating. (:

i guess i shouldn't feel too upset cos i already had lots of fun with my friends this christmas. it's been a long time since i've last spent christmas in singapore because most of the time, i'll be overseas during christmas.

well, things hasn't been going well for the last week of the year for me. i quit my job at daniel yam and had major issues in all aspects of my life, friendships, relationships and kinship. i need to undergo major changes to improve myself. there really is a need to. this is getting serious without myself knowing and only when the people around me pointed it out to me, then did i know how all this bad habits of mine are not only affecting me, but also the people around me. somehow, the feeling was different from the previous times. i feel that if i don't change any sooner, i will lose myself and the people around me.

i have to admit, i was taken aback when you told me all those things cos i have never expected that one of the most important person in my life would tell me that the perspective and attitude that you had on me has changed. it was hurting and my heart was seriously in pain. all i could feel was an endless stream of tears and a blank mind. somehow i just couldn't take it and my fingers didn't know how to type and my words got stuck in my throat. it was after a conversation that calmed my nerves and soothe my pain. when i was ready to think and my brain was clear enough to sort out the puzzles in my mind, then did i know that it was because of the word CARE that made you spoke such harsh words. i also finally understood what i need to do and how i should start to go about making all this changes.

thank you. (:

anyway, i think i'm improving because i arrived exactly on time when i met sean yesterday. he was taken aback when i arrived on time for the first time. heh heh. :DDD

i decided to quit my job cos i don see the need to work at that place anymore. the people there are quite nice and i met a few nice people there but there was some mean ones whom i met in the later part in my job and i seriously did not enjoy working with them. also, there's no fixed outlet for part timers and you need to go around to fill in places when they need people. there's no commission and the rate they pay you is quite low. most importantly, they gave different part timers different pay so this would mean that there are other part timers who got a higher pay than me when i'm doing the same amount of work as them. i mean who would want to stay at such a place who pay their workers so unfairly? i wouldn't want to so i quit.

the first daniel yam dress i wore at work. (:

have all of you got your new year resolutions ready? i have prepared mine. i even prepared my wish already. i can't wait for the clock to strike twelve so i could make my wish outside my bedroom window. (:

somehow, i don't see the need to write out my resolutions and wishes to show it to everyone. there are some things that you don't have to speak and people could feel it for themselves. it's like using your heart to speak. i believe the people around me could feel it when my resolutions are working it's magic. to me, a new year is a new beginning but if a person doesn't bother to improve themselves it's seriously of no difference at all. it's like you are still leaving in the same time and place without making any changes and improvements to your life. it's the effort that u put in to go about making all this changes that matters and people can feel it sooner or later. this is when your resolutions works and you improve to become a better person. (:

goodbye 2006. you passed quickly and it has been fruitful living through you. i'll miss every bit of the happiness and laughter, the tears and sadness spent through you. i'll cherished all the memories created and shared with everyone i met along the way. (:

living in the memories that you left behind.

my new job!

Thursday, December 14, 2006, 1:03 AM

changed the song to corinne bailey rae's just like a star. it's a really nice and soothing song. enjoy people. (:

after today, i don't really know whether will i be able to blog as much as i did for the past few days because i will be working from today onwards. (:

i woked up early in the morning at around 9.30 pm and got ready for the telemarketer interview at bouna vista. i almost lost my way but because of xdf's help, i was able to locate the place eventually. i asked for directions but the people wasn't very friendly lor. i seriously felt like kicking thier butts. i had to fill up those long and deary forms for interviews and i seriously don't like them. neverthless, i still squeeze as much words as i can into the pages so that i can flaunt whatever bull shitting experiences that i have. aha.

i don't think i will accept the telemarketer job because i can only work for 2 weeks before my sch reopens. i want to find a job that i can continue working even when my sch reopens. unfortunately, the time table for a telemarketer is office hours (8.30am - 6pm), so i don't think i will take up that post.

i had lunch with xdf at queensway before heading down to kallang for another interview. did some catching up with him and he keeps laughing at me saying that i haven't change. i told him that in some ways, i have changed mentally. maybe i didn't change much physically but there are definetely some improvements mentally. thanks for the intro, xdf. (:

when i reach kallang, i took a cab down to the interview place cos i don't know where is it. i was kinda shock cos it was kinda ulu there. aha. neverthless, i picked up the courage and went in for the interview myself. ALL BY MYSELF! i was surprised at how independent i had become. aha. eileen couldn't come with me bcos she developed hong mo (a kind of rashes) and she had to stay at home to rest. sorry chong. it must be the crabs that we ate last night that caused the rashes. so sorry. ):

the interview went pretty well and i will be starting work at around 1.30 pm later. my work ends at 9.30 pm and since it's the holidays, i will be working most of the time. the shift will change when my school starts i guess. anyway, curious as to where i will be working? i am working at ...

DANIEL YAM!

you can visit this web for more details.

http://www.danielyam.com

if you need gowns for dinner and dance or any functions like weddings etc, make sure you find me ok? hahahaha.

i will be working at the suntec outlet later but that is not the fixed outlet for me. i will be posted to different outlets on different days. aha. so if you want to drop by, must give me a call or send me an sms ah!

till next time ...

BYE!

another one will be gone tommorrow. ):

job hunting.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006, 12:16 AM

yawns.

just got back home after a day out with my friends. even though i am supposed to go on a job hunt with eileen today, somehow it resulted in a gathering session at the end of the day. it was really fun though. all the chats and laughter somehow brightens my inner soul and leave me feeling more complete at the end of the day. what can i say? i simply love having my dearest friends around me. (:

i met up with eileen at 3 pm at city hall mrt but somehow, both of us came late. the most surprising thing was that a late queen like me actually came before eileen. aha. her train had some problems on the way so i ended up reaching first. somehow, it's been a long time since i've last waited for someone and this time i had to wait for eileen for 15 mins. 15 mins might seem short to you but somehow the process of waiting was unbearable. i only waited for a mere 15 mins and i could not tolerate the process of waiting already. it seems long and deary and you need to endure the long waiting process and it can be really boring. i can't imagine how my friends can wait for almost an hour for me. i am so guilty that i messaged claire and told her that ...

I WILL TRY MY BEST TO BE ON TIME FROM NOW ON!

yes. i will try my best to come on time cos it is really selfish and bad of me to always keep people waiting. i also want to drink more water, bathe earlier, sleep and wake up earlier too. in simple, i want a HEALTHY LIFESTYLE!

both of us went to marina square and we walked around to see what jobs is avaliable. actually, quite a lot of shops are hiring new staffs but some of them aren't what we want so we didn't walked in for the interview. we passed by IS and the offer seems to be pretty okay so we tooked down the number. after that, we went over to suntec and we walked around and we saw that daniel yam is also hiring. so we took down the number again and we called IS first and we will be going down for an interview tml. i'm going for the telemarketer interview tml morning too. :DDD

then, we decided to call up daniel yam and we came to realised that it was the same number and they are of the same branch. no wonder i feel that the person speaking to me over the phone sounded so farmiliar. hahahaha. eileen and me almost laughed our asses off.

after our job hunting, we met up with claire and amanda at amk to have dinner! :DDD

we had our dinner at a kopitiam opposite our ex-secondary school. the coffee shop that appears cold and isolated in the afternoon was suprisingly crowded and full of people at night. we had crabs, kang kong, fried egg with onions and gu lu yok for dinner! it was yummylicious and i had a great time. it was the company that made the difference i guess. (:

we walked over to sheng shiong and we bought some stuffs to munch on. wierd ah? we eat so much and we can still munch on snacks. i bought cuttlefish and despite the fact that it made my mouth really smelly, i enjoyed munching on it! yummy! hahas. then, we walked all the way to the interchange and we talked a lot. it feels really good when you can hang out with your friends. (:

if everything is successful, the four of us will be going overseas together for the first time next year. hee! we might be going on a cruise or to genting. i am very excited about it ah! aha. thanks amanda for coming up with this splendid idea. (:

i didn't know that i will think of him that much. somehow, he is on my mind more often than i know. i miss him when he's gone. absence makes the heart grows fonder i guess.

come back soon.

i wonder are you missing me too?

come back quickly. ):

Sunday, December 10, 2006, 4:07 PM

i changed my blogsong! previously, it was jojo's too little too late but now i changed it to beyonce's irreplaceable. all thanks to sharifah for humming this song in class until i got so addicted to it. aha.

to the left to the left ...

went out with sean ytd and i was supposed to meet him at 4 pm but i woked up at 3 pm. due to the quick reflexes that i have, i smsed him and told him to leave house later and he was just about to step out of the house when i smsed him. lucky lucky ah! if not he has to wait for me for dunno how many god damned hours. in the end, we met up at around 5 pm and we went to wheelock to check out the apple stuffs there. he got himself an ear piece that cost about $30 la! behold people, this is not the most expensive ear piece they have there. the most expensive ear piece can go up to more than a $100! this is total madness! what can such a ear piece do sia? providing massage for your ears? so expensive can?!

we went to takashimaya after that cos i wanted to drop by to say hi to my dear claire. i was quite awed and taken aback at how RED levis has become. their staffs and products are mostly all clad in RED. is chinese new year around the corner? lols. crapped with her for a while and we left. we passed by guess and you know what?

THERE'S A SALE IN GUESS!

i chionged in and to my amazement, everything they have in there is on sale la! from the wallets to the belts, everything was on sale! up to 50% leh! i was so excited can? but i was uber broke so i had to leave the shop without buying anything. i want money money money! ): i am a very nice friend so i went back to levis to inform claire about the sale and she was very high too. aha. but sadly, she is as broke as me. lols.

we went to zara and walked around before going to heeren. when i was at heeren, i dropped by new urban male to say hi to gary. hahas. he is still as cute as ever. (claire, please get a grip on yourself. aha.) sean and me went to HMV to check out some CDs and i was freaked out to see a guy singing damn loudly while listening to the music. he seems to be a little sot and he reminds me of the rocker from my school who always sing to himself and headbang when he is walking around RP. lols.

anyway, can you imagine it? F4 is actually releasing some kind of book with CDs and lots of goodies like posters and calenders in it. they are actually selling it at $100 lor. omg la! even though i USED TO BE a F4 fan, i die die also won't buy de. i mean they have already disbanded such a long time ago, what's the real motive of coming together to release something like this? obviously, it's to make money laa. i won't be so stupid to spent my money on them anymore. fuck lor. thinking back, i think i wasted so much money on them when i was still in secondary school. i still have the pictures and stuffs of them in my room la. anyone wants to buy eh? i sell to you at a cheap cheap price! :DDD

then, we walked over to dobhy ghaut and went to the the manhanttan fish market at plaza sing to have our dinner. due to the nice guy sean is, he gave me a treat! hahahaha. thanks sean. (: the food there is really nice and i had a set meal which is made up of a main course, a drink and a soup of the day. my main course is damn yummy laa cos it's made up of prawns! everything is made up of prawns! wee~ i love prawns! :DDD

after dinner, mr nice guy had to leave for a clubbing session with his friends at MOS and he PANG SEH me for his friends. he told me that he's not going to MOS so i met up with him de lor. in the end, he PANG SEH me and he went to MOS with his friends. what a sucker la. but since i'm a nice and understanding girl, i did not take it to heart and i let him go. see i'm so nice lor. don need to feel bad la sean. aha. no harm done. (:

i went home after that and i reached home quite early. it's been a long long time since i reached home at 10 pm? woah! so early can?

many people seems to be leaving me recently. one of them flew to europe for a holiday and another one is going into army in a few days time. hais. although it's not forever, but due to the emotional wreck i am, i still feel quite upset. ):

look into my eyes
and tell me the truth
did you lie to me?

what a boring day!

Friday, December 08, 2006, 4:41 PM

it's a friday afternoon and the sky is turning grey. the sound of thunder can be heard in the distant sky and the laughter of children can be heard from the playground below my house. music is blasting from my speakers and it is mixed with the occassional ring of my msn messenger.

I AM SO BORED LA CAN?

i woked up an hour ago there's nothing to do at home and there's nothing to eat. i am farking lazy to go downstairs and buy my own lunch. i am simply too lazy to step out of my house. i just want to sit here and rot my afternoon away. i've been doing this on thursday also mah. i'm kinda used to it. there's not much people online too! i don't have much people to talk to. i am so bored laa. ):

also, i need a job! i need cash! many many many cash! money money money! sometimes i wonder, why can't money just drop down from the sky when i need them? people always have to work for what they want in thier lives so i guess this is the same when it comes to working for money. if you want money, you need to work for it.

well, xdf just intro a job to me and the job is to be working as a telemarketer. (yes yes, you're right. a telemarketer is someone who picks up the damn phone and start speaking into it!) the pay is kinda good and the working hours are kinda okay too. it's $7 per hour and it's from monday to friday. saturdays and sundays are off days and the working hours are from 8.30am - 6pm. also, it's at bouna vista! hahahaha. not bad la hor? xdf, thanks for introducing this job to me ah! (:

but still, i want more jobs cos i want more money! so if you guys got any lobangs, must tell me ah! hahahaha. thank you. :DDD

i'll miss you when you're gone.

eileen's birthday.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006, 11:59 AM

i thought only a few days has passed since my last update, didn't know that almost a week has gone by until fiona told me to update. heh heh.

dennis accompanied me home ytd and we passed by many many shophouses around my house area. it's been such a long time since i've pass by that area even though i have been living here for 18 years of my life. lols. i had fun reminiscing about my childhood days. (:

last sunday, i met up with dennis and we went to town. he came to woodlands to wait for me and we went to town together. nice of him eh? aha. we went to cineleisure to get tickets for happy feet before heading to the nearby starbucks to have a drink. i prefer the caramel flavour than the rest! the caramel flavour they have at starbucks tastes so much better than the one at coffee bean. dennis had java chip flavour which taste so chocolatey! i still prefer caramel though! (:

we went to heeren to walk around and we took neoprints there. i won't be posting them up cos i don't have a scanner. don't be upset that you all can't see my pretty face ah! aha. after that, we went back to cineleisure to watch happy feet. the show is nice ah! happy feet looks so cute when he was young. if you like funny and adorable cartoons, be sure to catch it yea?

then, we went to centerpoint to have our dinner. we ate at some kind of noodle restaraunt and the food there is super uber nice!

after that, we walked all the way to dobhy ghaut and he sent me home. i had a great day and it was really fun hanging out with him. (:

on saturday, it was eileen's birthday and i met up with claire at around 3 pm at vivo city to get amanda and eileen's birthday present. i was late but i didn't do it on purpose! there was some problems with the mrt railway and there was no train going to marina bay. luckily, i was taking towards jurong east but somehow, the problems with the railway also caused a delay in the trains heading towards jurong east. i reached at around 4 pm and claire had to wait for me again. i'm sorry claire! really really sorry! i really left the house on time. sorry dear. ):

we shopped around vivocity and we bought a adidas bag for amanda and a guess wallet for eileen. i like that adidas bag actually. i love the black one! i wanna get one a long time ago. i want a guess wallet too! been eyeing them for a long time. but i'm super broke now so how to get them? ):

amanda reached at around 5 pm and we shopped around until our legs were sore. the rest was really slow and they came really late. aha. after lynnda and fiona reached vivocity, wai liang and eileen also arrived a little while later. we walked around and was deciding where to have our dinner. we wanted to go to marche but unfortunately, the place wasn't opened. because of this, we had to look for other places to eat. we went to crystal jade dining in but we need to wait for more than half an hour before we can get a place so we decided to eat elsewhere. when i was in crystal jade, there was this fucking rude ang mo who ANYHOW ANYHOW touch me cos he thought that i cut his queue. he's sick in the mind. i was previously in the queue already just that he thinks that i'm not in the damn queue. please la rotten rambutans (ang mo tans), please open your small eyes and take a good look before you accuse people ok? also, don't ANYHOW ANYHOW touch people ok! i can sue you for that! this is singapore, not your own country. please learn to respect people and use EXCUSE ME! KNNBCCB!

anyway, we looked around for swensen but we couldn't find it anywhere and some of them decided to eat at carls junior, but at the very last moment, we spotted secret recipe and we decided to settle our dinner there. we had fun there and amanda and claire ordered a piece of cake for eileen and we sang her birthday song there. each of us took turns to eat the small cake and it was very heartwarming. also, the marshmallow cake was really yummy! aha. the sweetest part was when wai liang kissed eileen on her lips because we asked them too. awww! muack muack! hahahaha. :p

we shopped around and because vivo city was officially opened, there was a lot of flower baskets outside the shops. each of us plucked a flower from those flower baskets and we gave it to eileen. aha. then, we went to the rooftop after that. eileen and wai liang took a sweet and romantic walk around while the rest of us slacked around the area. a while later, claire left with calvin and eileen and wai liang went to took a cable car ride so the rest of us went home. on the way home, i saw claire and calvin so we went off together.

eileen, i hope you like the celebration yea? thanks for the gifts that you got for us when you are shanghai! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EILEEN!

on friday, i went clubbing for the first time in my life. claire was nice enough to go with me despite feeling very tired cos she knows that i want to give clubbing a try. aha. i met up with fangqi at amk and we went to town. we had our dinner at scotts and the food that we had was kinda sucky. we shopped around while waiting for claire to knock off from work. i have lots to say when i'm with fangqi ah. she's really friendly. lols. we walked over to far east plaza and she saw lots of people she knew there. she really knows a lot of people cos she was saying hi whenever we are walking around. aha. when we are at far east, someone asked for my number! GOODNESS LAA! hahahaha. i didn't give that guy my number cos he looks malaysian to me even though he wasn't very bad looking. -.-

we continued shopping around before going back to takashimaya to wait for claire to knock off. after that, we walked to dobhy ghaut to wait for calvin cos he's coming along too. in the end, we went off first cos he will be reaching later cos he was held up at work. the three of us wanted to took a cab to momo but there wasn't any cabs in sight! damn! because of this, we took a train to clarke quay and tony and gang came to fetch us when we arrived. we walked over to momo and i was suprised to see someone that i have not seen for a long time there. somehow, the feeling wasn't really pleasant so i didn't felt like talking to her. calvin arrived a little later and we all went in.

the music in momo was really blasting loud and i don't find the music nice. to me, it kinda sucks. the environment was also damn sucky la. so much smoke in there and there wasn't any hunks around. claire, fangqi, calvin and me left at around 2 plus to have supper before going home. it was seriously a waste of money. overall, the clubbing experience kinda sucks to me. i guess i don't really enjoy clubbing even though i'm a night life person. the only thing i enjoyed is most probably the vodka ribena i had. i can't believe i paid $18 inhaling second hand smoke, wasting my energy standing, dancing like a clown and drinking vodka ribena. bah!

randoms of the week.

outing with sean.