it's the last day of the year and i'm finally here to blog. if i don't update any sooner, i seriously think i'll be killed by people like aqilah and fiona. (don't believe me? check out the tag board and you'll get what i mean. )

but don't you think it's kinda pathetic? i mean sitting in front of the computer on the last day of the year and blogging isn't close to the word FUN in my dictionary. i don't know if it works for you but in this case, it certainly doesn't work for me. unfortunately, claire is sick and amanda has something on today so we had to cancel the countdown event this year. nevertheless, it's okay for me. staying at home on new year's eve isn't as bad as you all think it might be. i have been doing this for many years of my life. i just miss the fireworks and the fun and laughter i can have with my friends. anyway, i was astounded to see a minority of people online. i guess everyone's outside celebrating. (:

i guess i shouldn't feel too upset cos i already had lots of fun with my friends this christmas. it's been a long time since i've last spent christmas in singapore because most of the time, i'll be overseas during christmas.

well, things hasn't been going well for the last week of the year for me. i quit my job at daniel yam and had major issues in all aspects of my life, friendships, relationships and kinship. i need to undergo major changes to improve myself. there really is a need to. this is getting serious without myself knowing and only when the people around me pointed it out to me, then did i know how all this bad habits of mine are not only affecting me, but also the people around me. somehow, the feeling was different from the previous times. i feel that if i don't change any sooner, i will lose myself and the people around me.

i have to admit, i was taken aback when you told me all those things cos i have never expected that one of the most important person in my life would tell me that the perspective and attitude that you had on me has changed. it was hurting and my heart was seriously in pain. all i could feel was an endless stream of tears and a blank mind. somehow i just couldn't take it and my fingers didn't know how to type and my words got stuck in my throat. it was after a conversation that calmed my nerves and soothe my pain. when i was ready to think and my brain was clear enough to sort out the puzzles in my mind, then did i know that it was because of the word CARE that made you spoke such harsh words. i also finally understood what i need to do and how i should start to go about making all this changes.

thank you. (:

anyway, i think i'm improving because i arrived exactly on time when i met sean yesterday. he was taken aback when i arrived on time for the first time. heh heh. :DDD

i decided to quit my job cos i don see the need to work at that place anymore. the people there are quite nice and i met a few nice people there but there was some mean ones whom i met in the later part in my job and i seriously did not enjoy working with them. also, there's no fixed outlet for part timers and you need to go around to fill in places when they need people. there's no commission and the rate they pay you is quite low. most importantly, they gave different part timers different pay so this would mean that there are other part timers who got a higher pay than me when i'm doing the same amount of work as them. i mean who would want to stay at such a place who pay their workers so unfairly? i wouldn't want to so i quit.



the first daniel yam dress i wore at work. (:

have all of you got your new year resolutions ready? i have prepared mine. i even prepared my wish already. i can't wait for the clock to strike twelve so i could make my wish outside my bedroom window. (:

somehow, i don't see the need to write out my resolutions and wishes to show it to everyone. there are some things that you don't have to speak and people could feel it for themselves. it's like using your heart to speak. i believe the people around me could feel it when my resolutions are working it's magic. to me, a new year is a new beginning but if a person doesn't bother to improve themselves it's seriously of no difference at all. it's like you are still leaving in the same time and place without making any changes and improvements to your life. it's the effort that u put in to go about making all this changes that matters and people can feel it sooner or later. this is when your resolutions works and you improve to become a better person. (:

goodbye 2006. you passed quickly and it has been fruitful living through you. i'll miss every bit of the happiness and laughter, the tears and sadness spent through you. i'll cherished all the memories created and shared with everyone i met along the way. (:



living in the memories that you left behind.