time to update again. i seriously feel that if i don't, aqilah will kill me la. she's so fierce to me when i don't update my blog. ):

seven days has passed since we stepped into the new year. how many of you out there can still remember the resolutions you have made? how many of you are actually making it come true?

i'm still trying my very best to fulfill my resolutions. although there's still minor glitches here and there at times, so far i think i have been carrying them out pretty well i guess. at the very least, i'm trying. i'm really trying already. i don't wish to give up half way. sad to say, some of you out there might not even feel it. but i'll continue trying until you all can feel it. i'll use my heart. i'll never forget that he taught me to use my heart to speak. (:

my nephew came over today and he's growing up real fast. he's still as adorable as ever but he's always crying. i really don't know why but sometimes it can really get on my nerve. i dote on him and love him a lot but he really cries too much. far too much. it has gotten to the extent of him being labelled as irritating when i hear him cry. for the entire 6 hours when he came over today, he was crying for 3 hours and he was sleeping soundly for the remaining 3 hours. you get wad i'm saying now? he cries until his voice is coarse and sore and my heart seriously aches for him. i even asked my mum whether can i get any mask for him to cover up his mouth in order to stop him from crying cos i'm really scared that he'll lose his voice as this goes on. other than that, he's just so cute whenever he laugh and smile whenever i play with him.





ain't he cute? (:

people around me have been breaking up recently. even though i am just an outsider, it's sad to see people separating after they have been through so much. in the end, only to realise that this person wasn't the one you're looking for. then, the cycle goes on and on again. sometimes i just wonder why? why are emotions made like this? maybe that's what you called life.

i have been trying to help some of the people around me recently. although i don't think i'm of much help, i seriously hope what i've done for them can make them cherish whatever they once had with each other more. be it friends or lovers, i just hope for the best for the both of them. good luck. (:

currently, i am very into a band called X JAPAN. i already came to know of this band a long time ago. (thanks to cynthia, the rock chic.) i didn't really like them and another friend of mine sent me some of their songs. at first, i just find it nice and wasn't really into them until he showed me a funeral video of their bassist, hide. i went online to find out more about him and i started to like him. it's such a pity that he died cos he was really talented and popular. he was found dead on a ripped white towel at his apartment's doorknob. some say he was trying to scare people cos he was well known to perform stunts to scare people and it was a stunt gone wrong. some say it was a suicidal attempt of his while some others say he's died cos he wanted to experience the thrill of dying. he's already gone for 8 years and he died when he was 33. if he's still alive, he'll be 41 by now. so sad can?











i think their music and the people in the band really rocks la. how i wish hide is still alive and they will come to singapore to perform. cynthia and me will buy front row tickets and scream our ass off.

cynthia has been waiting for this day for a long time. the day i fell in love with X JAPAN.

rock on. \m/

crucify my love.