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Mood: Excited. Quotes: “Like a rainbow fading in the twinkling of an eye, gone too soon.”
my tears flows for a friend.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007, 12:56 PM
i cried last night. it's been a long time since my tears last flowed. this time, it didn't flow for just any guy. my tears fell for a friend of mine. my dearest friend. my best friend.

i was talking to her in msn and i realised that it's been sometime since i've last talked to her. we do sms occasionally and update each other on our lives but somehow we are apart. there's a certain distant between us and i can't see her as much as i used to in my secondary school days. i used to see her everyday and i can talk to her anytime and anywhere i want. i miss that feeling. it felt really nice and special to have someone so close to you at all times. someone to lean on when you are feeling sick and tired. someone who cares from you from the heart. i really miss those days.

but sadly, those days are gone. we can never be around and together like how we used to. we have to admit that this is one of the major changes. we can't meet up as much. this might be one of the many changes that we experienced in our friendship i guess. knowing new friends and going out with them, being busy in our school work and having our own problems. we are continuing with our lives.

but when i settle down and when i'm alone, somehow my mind will be diverted to her and i would feel like expressing my concern for her. i just don't know how to i guess. i'm scared i'll do it in the wrong way. as my life goes on everyday, there is like a missing spot in my heart. no matter how many new people i meet along the way, none of them can fill up that space. she is like the only one who is fit to be in there. it's just different i guess.

my heart just turned sour and tears started welling up in my eyes when i talked to her in msn last night. i miss her so much as a friend. i feel like sharing so much things with her and telling her everything that happened to me. that feeling i experienced ... is beyond words could explained. believe it or not, only the both of us will understand.

i seriously don't give a damn about people calling me a lesbian and saying i'm crazy over a friend. i wonder why such people only waste their tears on guys who just come and go in their lives. to me, true friends are the people who stay with you to give you comfort and care when you get hurt or ditched by guys. where are all the guys you love when you need them? i know i can't blame such people too. they have never gone through such things and never had such feelings before so they can never understand. in their eyes, they would just find it psychotic. i just don't give a damn about it.

i'm happy with my life now and i feel really blessed when i'm with him. somethings has finally ended and now a new phase has begin. i just hope we last.

anyway, i'll never forget my girls ... especially you, amanda.

(:

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