let me start off this post with ...



:DDD

i drew that and robin says it looks real can? i'm great at drawing SHIT and i'm so proud of it. no wonder i'm miss shitty.

MISS SHITTY DRAWS REAL NICE SHIT, HE SAYS.

the most suprising thing is i can draw watermelons too!



DAMN. I FORGOT TO ADD IN THE HANDS. BAH.

weihow, i can draw okay. please don't kua suay me. (:

recently i kept getting pang seh and i seriously don't know why. do i have a pang seh face? i only know i am miss pang sai and miss pang sai doesn't like getting pang seh. i rarely pang seh people and i get pang seh three times in a row this week. ):

anyway, FORGET IT.

being pang seh is a good thing i guess, i started on my maths revision already. more to come more to come! give me encouragement people! i need lots of them. the sole idea of retaking it again and going through the same procedure and knowing that i will cry my heart out again if i fail is enough to make me work for what i want.

AJA AJA FIGHTING YY!

i went to mandai with my family and relatives today to pray for my deceased grandma and grandpa. both of them are from different sides of my family. it was really hot and stuffy there. with all the raging fire and leaping flames and the additional help of the blazing weather, i think i can just melt on the spot. but since it's a one year one time thing and i'm there to pay respects because i want to, i seriously didn't mind.

looking at the pictures of my grandma and grandpa, i find it wierd how come a living person can just be reduced to a pile of ashes in the end and all is left is a picture of them looking back at you. the memories is still there in your mind, but the person just doesn't seem to be around anymore. they should be there but they are not.

the passing of my grandpa made my grandma miss him so much. she cried and she kneeled down in front of the altar with tears. she talks to him and tells him so much so much but can he hear what she said? i hope he did. just by looking at the sight in front of me made me felt like crying together with her. i cannot do anything to comfort or to ease her pain but i can only stroke her back lightly and to hold her hands. that's the only thing i can do ...

on the other hand, i miss my grandma a lot. i miss her so so so so so much. although it's been eight years since she's gone, the pain doesn't get any lesser. my heart still yearns to see her around once more. even though i was only ten when she died, i can still remember clearly what she always did. she is my favourite person in the family. my favourite person in the whole world.

I MISS YOU PO PO ..

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there's some problems with msn and all my messages cannot be delivered. it's getting on my nerve!

BAH.



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