GOD BLESS ME.

i have something tragic to annouce.

MY PHONE DROPPED INTO A BOWL OF FISH SOUP DURING LUNCH YTD AND I AM VERY UPSET NOW.

i warn you people, DO NOT LAUGH OR MOCK AT ME.

my phone has gone dead on me and i can't even turn it on at first. luckily, after several attempts of drying the stupid phone, such as drying it under a fan and using a hand dryer, i can turn it on but the entire keypad has already lost it's sensitivity. i don't have any access to my contacts because the keyboard cannot detect anything! i might as well just shut it off. i can't remember much numbers so i am losing connection with the world. seriously, it's freaking hard to survive without a phone because it's so fucking troublesome and the feeling totally sucks when you cannot call or sms WHENEVER WHEREVER.

:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

luckily, terence is helping me to get my phone fixed and he lent me his spare phone. LUCKILY LAAAAAAAA. if not, i don't know how to survive without a phone. thanks terence! :D

lots of events happened last week but i shan't blog about all of them in details, i'll blog it out briefly.

i went out with sean last monday and i finally got a pair of canvas pumps! even though it's not the one i wanted intially, it wasn't as bad anyway.



some pictures of ...

ME ME ME.









on tuesday, i skipped school because i couldn't wake up in time for school. i went to sleep at 5 am in the morning because i was on the phone with mr. terence. DUH!

i met up with crystal, beatrice and weihow in the evening to go over to beatrice's house to see her cute lil mini shih tzu! (:

beatrice's dog is really cute and like what wei how and crystal said, it's really a beautiful mini shih tzu. i mean from what i know about shih tzu, i thought all of them have eyeballs that dangles everywhere and they look really retarded. surprisingly, beatrice's dog did not possess such qualities. it's super cute la!











the only bad thing about her dog is that she has the tendency to chase after others whenever she sees people holding any kind of food and i seriously mean ANY KIND OF FOOD. she likes to jump on people and i seriously screamed out loud everytime she jumps on me. even though i am really fierce to humans, i totally freaked out when her dog chases me around the house or when i lift up my legs. hahas. poor wei how needs to keep reminding me that i cannot TAI JIAO, because if i do, the dog will start to chase and follow my legs. hahahaha. that sucker wei how even say that i am USELESS and that I AM SCARED OF DOGS BUT I CAN BE SO FIERCE TO HUMANS.

BAH!

we went down to the nearby mac to have a talk and we left at around 11pm.

this is for ANG WEI HOW. his most UNGLAM MOMENT! you asked me to post it ang.

HAHAHAHAHA.



beatrice, smile when you see all these pictures! (:

then on wednesday, i went to toa payoh's botak jones to have dinner with cynthia, ken and nicole!



i can tell you, the quantity is so much that i can't finish everything. more than half was left uneaten and i felt like i ate a cow after that. the suasages there are really yum yum! :D

i stayed out on friday night and terence brought me around singapore. we went to so many places that i can't even remember all of them.

first, we went to causeway point to get my phone fixed but unfortunately, the nokia service centre is already closing. then, we went down to bedok to have dinner and the food there is fucking nice la. it's exactly like what you can find at newton but the only difference is that it's so cheap there, you think you're dreaming. i think my dinner only cost around 5 bucks? i had chicken wings, bar chor mee, orh jian and sugarcane and it's 5 bucks la! initially, we wanted to go down to MOS to see see look look because his friend can bring us in for FREE but we abandoned the idea in the end.

we went down to a pub called timbre and i drank margarita while he had fruit punch! hahahahaha. it was freaking hilarous because he can't take alcohol cos he's driving later and due to the fact that he has lousy driving skills, he didn't want to take the risk. lols. fruit punch was nice for him i guess. :D

then we went to cineleisure to watch wild hogs. i think the show is alright la and it was kinda funny. after that, his lousy driving skills was supposed to bring us back to sembawang because he wanted to teach me how to drive, but we ended up at mount faber cos we happened to pass by that place. i always wanted to go there so we end up looking over the coast line and crapping away with the company of the mosquitoes. we didn't get to see couples making out though. damn it. i wanted to take a look at the shaking cars that ming dao told me about. LOL.

then, we went over to sentosa and we had to pay a freaking sum of $3 for each person. terence said we could get in for free but i doubt so. when did sentosa ever become free? :/

it was great though cos i got to see a shaking car at tanjong beach! hahaha. we went to sentosa golf club and continued crapping in the car because of the heavy rain. the damn rain was so heavy that i think it was so hard for a lousy driver like him to drive la. i couldn't go to siloso beach to see more shaking cars because of the rain la. ):

nevertheless, it was a fun night! (:

i saw a very nice bag at NUM last night! i think i wanna get it but i think it's going to be fucking expensive la. nevermind we shall see la. aha. i am aiming for a pair of canvas pumps AGAIN! i saw the pumps at everlast when i was out with terence just now when we are going to town to fix my phone. i am so gonna get it when i meet claire aw tommorow!

:D

memories of you came flooding back.

recently, i am obsessed with photoshop.

i know i used to yak and yak and yak about how people who photoshop their pictures are NOTHING but UNORIGINAL. i complain about how they use photoshop to cover their flaws and how they are afraid of showing their true faces and that is why they photoshop their pathetic faces to cover up their hideous flaws. i think i even went to the extent of assuring the people around me that i will never use photoshop.

pardon me for saying that. i completely take back my words now. x:

after my few experiments with photoshop, i realised the wonders that it can actually do! i realised it's not about covering hideous flaws but it's actually a form of ART. (there we go again.) it's a form of expression and designing whereby you can actually create lots and lots of beautiful effects and fonts just by that software! i have become one of the photoshop whores and i am so proud of it! :DDD

below are a few of my experiments that i have carried out. (btw, they are the ones that i am proud of!)































SOR-RAY FOR THE MASSIVE AMOUNT OF PICTURES WITH MY FACES ON IT. I KNOW THEY ARE DEADLY. ROFL.

now, do you see the wonders eh?

i will be glad to help my dear friends to photoshop their pictures if you all don't look down on my lousy skills. :DDD

i think i better sign off now.



this is done by photoshop too!

three cheers to the inventor of photoshop.

HIP HIP HURRAY! HIP HIP HURRAY! HIP HIP HURRAY!

i am back to update about the outing with my girls last saturday.

i keep promises. (:

anyway, i met up with claire first before meeting the rest because we wanted to shop. remember the canvas pumps i said i wanna get? i still cannot find my size at any of the outlets! i really like the design. if anyone of you come across a grey pair of canvas pumps with cute lil eyeballs thingy all around the shoe and if it happens to be a size four, please let me know. ):

amanda and fiona came down to meet us a little while after we met and we continued shopping around before heading to mccafe to sit down to wait for eileen and lynnda. btw, lynnda was really late and i am so proud that i managed to psycho-ed her to take a cab down! hahaha. that fatty bom bom of mine is really a miser when it comes to cabbing BUT i still love her lots. (:







we went to new york new york to have our dinner and it was freaking funny when i started to play lame games with them. it was just some simple games that i learnt at camp but i didn't know that it would turn out to be so entertaining. hahas. i am a BORN entertainer. :DDD













we headed to kbox after that and we sang all the way until 4 am in the morning. claire didn't join us cos she needs to work in the morning the very next day. although kbox was freaking expensive as it was a saturday night, not to mention it being cold, i really enjoyed myself. it's been such a long time since we last met up together and had so much fun. (:







anyway, thanks de lun for waking up and fetching me home at an unearthly hour at 5 am in the morning. (:

recently, i designed my plain and fugly looking white board in my room to something much much nicer.



CALL ME AN ARTIST. :DDD

i shall end the post with a picture with all my team mates from the STA FOP CAMP '07. <3

another one week has passed just like that. time really flies before i even know it.

school has been alright so far and since i am changing classes everyday, i haven't really got to know everyone or had any chances of being close with my new classmates. nevertheless, i seriously enjoy the modules i'm having everyday even though it's ART ART ART and it can be really stressful sometimes. my world is totally ARTY FARTY. hahas. (:

i went to lynnda's class yesterday and i noticed that that REAL guy with the REAL identity that i met at camp happened to be just beside her class. weihow that freak said that he wanted to bang open the door and just ask that guy to come out, in the end, he had no guts to. HAHA. he even dared me to go in and lynnda asked him not to dare me cos she knows i will do it and guess what? i ended up opening the door and asking him out for a talk and i said i want to speak to him.

i didn't know telling him about all that has happened would be so tough. my heart was seriously beating super fast. luckily i kept my cool at that time and i didn't showed that i am emotionally traumatized. hahas. looking at someone with that exact same face and telling him all that has happened wasn't something easy you know. just the thought of knowing that he doesn't know me deep down is enough to make my tears flow. all i see is unfamiliarity in his eyes and all i got was a sincere thanks for informing. after he left, my tears just fell cos the memories just flooded back and it was suffocating if i didn't let out my tears.

thinking back, am i doing all this because i really want him to know about the matter or is it that i just want him to be aware of my existence?

i don't really know.

the only thing that made me so surprised was that he actually managed to find my friendster account and send me a message to thank me. i was overwhelmed and shocked. in the end, we ended up talking about this matter in msn.

somehow, it's wierd how god arranged my fate to be this way. going to all means to let me experience my life and yet save me at the very last minute to stop the pain and hurt from lingering any furthur. no matter that, thank god and everyone who has been through this episode of my life with me. i am glad it's over. (:

shall update tonight again about the outing with the girls last weekend. lots of pictures!

now, i need a break bcos i'm having a severe tummy upset.

):

i thought i am strong but i still can't control my tears.

today marks the end of my school holidays. school will reopen tml. ):

i have four classes for this semester and i seriously think that it's crazy. four different classes for four different modules?! how am i supposed to remember all of them? i used to have only one class for all five modules and now i have four different classes everyday.

one word: CRAZY.

anyway, i went out with amanda on wednesday. we went kbox-ing at clementi in the morning. i tell you, the lunch there sucks big time! the mee pok taste like so cold and hard, i felt like i was stuffing stones down my throat. because of the horrible food that we had, we had lunch AGAIN around that area and we collected my specs before heading to vivo city.

we bought tickets to watch the reaping. i've seen the trailer and it seems really nice and trailing so i psycho-ed amanda to watch the show. LOL. even though amanda was hiding behind my bag for almost the entire movie, the show turned out to be really nice. i think it's quite trailing and full of suspense. worth the money lar. i don't know why but amanda says it's like a horror movie. she is especially scared of horror shows. HAHA. :x

there was some time to spend before the movie started so we sat outside daiso and crapped the hours away and played silly games that i learnt at camp while we chewed on donuts. although the time spent together was short, it's really nice to be able to spend some time with my bestie alone. (:

after the movie, we shopped around and i bought a little miss star tee from topshop. i like it a lot man! although it cost me 46 bucks, i really think it's worth the price la. i wanna go shopping again soon! i wanna get hoodies and canvas pumps! :DDD



on friday, i met up with sean and we had dinner at sakura. it was his treat again cos he wanted to eat really good food after days in the jungle. lols. the most unfortunate thing that happened was that i broke my sister's heels in town. i had to break off the other heels to turn it into flats! it was farking embarrassing. LOL. i got a scolding from her and now i need to pay for her heels. :/

anyway, mum has gone overseas with my grandma and my aunt for a week. i'm stucked at home with my sis.

NO good food.

NO wake up calls.

NO nagging.

NO washing of dirty laundry.

NO cleaning up of my room.

and i really think i will start missing my mummy soon.

):

the STA FOP 2007 camp is finally over.

i manged to mingle around with students who are in different years. (i mean both the freshmen and the seniors of STA.) not forgetting to mention to get to know and to see the faces of all the facilitators in STA.

it was so tiring to be running around the school during the gangsta hunt, screaming on top of your lungs, getting everyone motivated and to be enthusiastic about the programmes that we have lined up for them, racking your brains for creatives ideas, performing and doing silly stunts in front of the school, sleeping in the cold forum, eating the food that doesn't taste like food. being tired is one thing but imagine doing all this when you are sick. it's almost like a tragedy to me.

nevertheless, it was a fun experience being a student leader and to be the one to lead and to care for the juniors. although the team was rather introvert and we aren't really the best team among all, i was glad that all of them gradually opened up and got into the camping mood. i hope this camp is a valuable experience for them cos it really is an unforgettable camp for me.

not just because of the camp itself, but because of someone i saw there.

it all started on the first day during breakfast. when i got the food for the team and was walking back to our seats, i glanced through the sitting crowd and i saw this person who was sitted down. our eyes met at that same moment and i was strucked by the resemblance of that face. his name and face immediately popped into mind. how could anyone in this world look so alike? the intensity of his eyes and the way he looked at me was beyond words. his eyes was so intense that i am strucked for five seconds that felt like forever.

i went back to my seat and i told cynthia about it before calling someone to let him know that i saw a person who resembles him so much that i felt that they might be the same person. in the end, it turned out that the person wasn't him. it was two different person, my mind kept telling me but my heart sees them as the same person. i didn't know why.

when i got to hear him speak in the crowd, telling the school his name and age, that really took my breathe away. how can there be anyone who looked so alike and they can even have the same name and age? i am bothered by this throughout the camp and i couldn't take my eyes of that person. somehow, i think he noticed that i am always staring at him and he would always give me this smirk and this look that he thinks he is the most handsome being on earth. soon, i got to dislike him more and more. the way he behaved and his attitude annoyed me even more when i got to see how he potrays himself in front of everyone. i bad mouthed about him and called him a poser and a show off and i stared at him everytime i walk past. somehow, i think he knows that i dislike him i guess.

i went home from the camp and i am still bothered by the resemblance of this two person. i was tired and i intend to bathe and sleep when i get home. who knows? i typed his name in the search engine and searched through all the 554 accounts that i found. just when i was about to give up, i found him. when i reach the last page, this photo that i saw strucked me so hard that i can hardly breathe. it was the profile of that person i saw at the camp. attached and happy with the life he has. his profile also contained a lot of others pictures that the other person i know actually had. the guy i saw at school seem to have a lot of concrete evidence to proof that he is the real person when compared to the other person i know.

this was when i realised that the person i know was a cheat. he wasn't the real person at all. he faked everything. yes, he is a faker and is a liar. all the things that he said was a lie and he was just using the identity of another to speak to me. i feel so cheated and i feel so hurt. the person i saw at camp was the one with his own real identity. the other guy just completely faked everything up.

and i cried. i really cried.

this is too much for me to take. i was cheated of my feelings and was being kept in the dark for almost 2 months! if i never did meet that person at the camp, i would never know what happened and i will still be blinded.

thank god for bringing that person into my sch. thank god that he attended the camp. thank god for letting me see what is actually really happening before i get hurt any furthur. thank god for everything.

this is really more than a coincidence. it's like it's arranged for me to find this out. everything just seems to be layed out so nicely and it seemed like all this while, i am just waiting for the time to come for me to find out all this.

the only thing i am being bothered is, how am i supposed to go to school and to face that person whenever he walks pass? how would i feel?

one has the face, the other has the character.

but so?

they are still not the same person. the person i really loved didn't exist in the first place.

now tell me ...

how do you love a person who never existed?

MY NEPHEW WAVES HELLO TO ALL! :DDD



i am finally home for one whole day after going out for three consecutive days.

pictures from last week.

dinner with ken and cynthia at botak jones. (yes, this is taken on the day i met the stalker.)

BEFORE.



AFTER.



do you see any difference?

HAHAHAHA.

kbox-ing with sean foo.



on the way for prayers.



taken during the STA workshops.





see my lan jiao bin?



last day at work.

my childhood cookies! YUM YUM. :DDD



ROBIN'S COMPANY. ROFL.



sunday was the day of kbox-ing with the company of jeffery. we met up and he waited half an hour for me NOT because i am late but bcos he left his house early. there's something wrong with his time estimation. hahas. anyway, he should wait for me since he let me wait an hour for him the last time. luckily my girls were there with me, if not, i would have been spent my time waiting in vain.

we went to cineleisure and had dinner at subway before heading to kbox to sing our lungs out. somehow, i think my singing has deproved. fuggit! i think i should really brush on it or take up some kind of singing lessons when i'm free. i cannot sound bad! with the schedule i have for this year, i think all this would have to wait and i will have to get my studies settled first. that includes my wish of learning how to drive. all of them would have to wait. ):

we left at around 11 plus and i reached home at around 12 plus. we can sing until 3 am but i wanna go home cos i don't wish to spend unneccesary money on cabbing.

anyway, kbox was on him. thanks ah. (:

monday was the day for movies with cynthia and ken. i met up with them in the afternoon and we went to sch to get cynthia's macbook fixed. off we went to yishun to catch THE NUMBER 23. it is super mind twisting with lots of trail in it. worth the money so go catch it! we walked around the pasar malam nearby and didn't get anything to eat cos we fight the temptations so freaking well! hahaha.

I AM YOUR WANG WANG PROMOTER ...



... PLEASE BUY FROM ME!





LOL.

tuesday was STILL a movie day. this time the day was spent with claire and delun. i miss claire aw. <3

she was spending money as usual and she bought a guess wallet before i even reach town. we went to get tickets for the 9 pm slot for MR BEAN'S HOLIDAY before walking down to plaza sing to meet delun for dinner. we had dinner at manhanttan the fish market! claire and me had the seafood platter for two while delun had fish and chips. i totally love the chessy prawns there. :DDD

lots of crapping and suan-ing between claire and me. delun was very quiet throughout and i really mean it when i say he's quiet. LOL. we shopped around and claire was about to spend unneccesary money on shopping again! luckily, i was there to stop her. i think she really hates shopping with me. HAHAHA.













that is not my boyfriend. lols!

BEANY IS SO FUNNY. I LAUGHED FROM THE START TILL THE END. HAHAHA. ESP THE PART WHEN HE WAS TRYING TO RAISE MONEY WITH THE LITTLE BOY. THE PART WHERE HE WAS WEARING A FREAKING BLACK SHAWL AND PRETENDING TO SING LIKE A NUN. ROFL.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

i love mr bean cos he makes me laugh ...

just like you. (:







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