it's time to give the blog a brand new face.

the search and selection for the best skin was a tedious one this time. i wanted something that was plain and simple one minute and then i decided to opt for something more fancy and glamorous the next minute. i spent hours looking through skins and was racking my brains on which ones to select and eventually i end up with this "i don't give a shit about you" skin. haha.

some of the better looking skins either have really ugly fonts or they have really messy layouts. it's really a waste cos some of them have really nice designs. oh well, i can't stand skins that doesn't have a balance of both so they're off to the trash can. this is probably one of the few that have a better balance between design and layout, but i don't think it'll be staying for long.

since last week, i'm already bent on changing and there was really some improvements being made. i guess it's just so insignificant that no one actually notices. but at the very least, i did try, i always use this to comfort myself. i didn't except to get a backlash from some of my friends about not making an effort to change and improve. i know they are trying to help but i was seriously upset that i cried myself to sleep last night because i know that i did try. maybe i just didn't try hard enough?

nevertheless, the scoldings from the two of my friends left me with a swollen eye (i couldn't attend school because of this) and the determination to continue making even more positive and obvious changes for all to see. no matter what, i know you all care and i thank you for that.

a talk with amanda on the phone a few hours earlier put me back on track and made me realize what i should actually get started on. she light up the spark within me once more. she always have some sort of magical powers. that's all i can say about my best friend.

and i won't fall back into the abyss of isolation.



you left me hanging once more, like what you did for the past two years.