this lady here is one of my besties and she has given me the permission to post this up because she finds herself "cute" in this video.

presenting, CLAIRE AW IN MOTION!



ni zai pai wo ma?

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

anyway, i shall post up more videos in this blog in the future. enjoy! (:

Ken says (1:10 AM):
"true wealth is measured by the quantity of quality friends"

you know, there are many different groups of people that you'll meet in your walk of life.

some are just acquaintances, people whom you just say hello and goodbye to.

some of them becomes your best friends, your good friends, your closest friends. this are the group of people whom you go through so much together. people whom you pour your woes and troubles to and people who will do the same back to you. this are the group of people who will never turn their backs on you when you are going through hardships and difficult moments in your life. they will always be there to show care and concern for you and to snap you back to reality when you really need it. they do it because they understand you fully and they want you to change, not because they just couldn't stand you anymore.

this few people are the people i have always been mentioning about. amanda, claire, eileen and cynthia. i always talk about them in my blog because they have always made an impact in my life and in my later years, i want to look through this blog again and be glad that i have such people with me throughout my life journey with me.

while some are just people that you hang around with everyday when you're in school and you don't really contact each other anymore as soon as you disappear from each other's sight. this are the kind of people whom you have fun with. they are somehow like an entertaining friend and it just stops there. you don't share problems with each other and you don't discuss much problems sincerely with each other.

this is a particular situation that i would like to talk about today. somebody commented about me quite badly in his blog and seriously, i wasn't in the least bit offended. (this might be due to the fact that my best friends have done much more nastier things to me to try waking me up. heh.)

i was just surprised that this person didn't come straight up to me to tell me his views about me and instead, decided to use a hidden channel to send his message to me and to others. i'm not saying that it's wrong, but since he's always claiming that we're best friends, i thought he would come straight up to me and tell me his dissatisfactions straight in the face.

part of what he said was true and i agreed with it. in fact, i even made a move to apologize about a misunderstanding that we had. somehow, the conversation just gradually got into an argument and all i got was backlash. it seems like this person, who have always claimed that i'm his best friend, was trying to make assertions about me. since i have known him for almost a year, i know that with that character of his, he'll only end up getting angry and fighting back even more. just to let you all know, my intention was not to fight back at all. i was just trying to clear things up.

with his temper, i know he'll go around and start telling people about whatever things that happened cos' he has always told me such stuffs whenever he gets into conflicts with his other cliques. seriously, i can't really be bothered by it and i still choose to go ahead to talk things out with him. am i stupid or what? haha.

all i can say to you is that i have never really felt that you are my best friend. this probably explains why i've never called you a bestie and whenever you called me one, i just choose to keep quiet. i remember telling you a few times that cynthia is really my best friend in poly and yes, she still is.

the only reason that keeps us from being best friends is probably how similar we are. i always feel that i am right and you always feel that you are wronged. sometimes when i look at your character, i can see my reflection in you. this probably explains why i am trying so hard to change because i do not want to become someone like you. i don't wish to have so many friends like you and at the end of the day, i can't even have a real friend by my side. i have always been telling you that i have never been close to the so called clique that was formed back then. this shouldn't be a surprise if you have been paying attention throughout the one year. they are my friends but they are not the people whom i will pour my problems and woes to.

all i need are a few best friends and true enough, i already have them. i don't need to go searching and looking for any more friends. they have never drift away from me and they have never turned their backs on me, like how you did. i am still in contact with them and i still talk to them like how we always do in the past. we still meet up every week and all but are you even in frequent contact with the people who are your friends?

think about how many times have you come up to me to complain about your dissatisfaction about others? how many times have you had quarrels with so many of your friends and cliques? how many times have all this problems been resolved and yet the friendship still remains strong?

i am not perfect and i know i have many bad qualities. yes, i am already working on them and i need to thank you for that. with your existence, it just helps me to see how much i need to improve before i turn into a lonely person like you one day.

you need to redefine your meaning of friends. you really need to.

thank you for those happy days of laughter.

since my eye candy isn't online tonight, i decided to watch some dramas on you tube. recently, i have been watching romantic princess but the latest episode hasn't been uploaded yet so i decided to start watching a new one instead. this time, i'm watching goong s and well, so far so good! it's a nice show. it reminds me of those days when i was watching goong.

oh ya, and se7en is really cute la! (:



he reminds me of my heart throb, kim jeong hoon from goong. yummy yummy!



sigh. i really love eye candies. speaking of which, i dream of my eye candy last night! it was seriously happening cos it's the second time i'm dreaming of him. this time was a little different though. i shall spare you the details, but it was really a wonderful and sweet dream. aww.

AIYA.

anyway, remember how i always love to tell all of you about how weird and desperate people loves sending messages to me through friendster/face book?

oh well, here's an example:

From: WeI ZHEnG

Date: Saturday, 24 November, 2007 11:57 AM

Subject: Bee BeE Movie on ShowN

Message:

ELLo ELLo

how are u today? hmmmm.... this is the second mail i send u now, u got my 1st mail anot ??? wonder, maybe u never get it? because friendster lately got much problems one that make pple cant received mail n send mail, did u find that?? THINK U CANT GET MY PREVIOUS MAIL. so i come email u again....anyway, SKYZ HERE HOR!

DON'T FORGET to update mi ur MSN email?ok ??? thanks :p ( in case friendster got problem crop up again)

HOW ur weekend for u ?? heee

Nowadays weather is not gd!!!, virus a lot, tend to fall sick easily lor, do DRINK MORE WATER !!!! heeee ..heee dun catch cold ah .. at night sleep mus cover tight with blanket k

ok, think i shall stop here ... tell mi more abt urself lah ... try to write more lah ...Tk care Hor!!!?.... heeeee ..CheerIos?

WitH WishEs,
SkYz WeiZheng

if you're interested, you can view his profile here.beware of the harmful contents though. he is not pleasant to the eye.

he's weird right? yes?

i think he's a stalker in the cyber world. brr.

first and foremost, yesterday is my best friend, amanda wong's 19th birthday. (:

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY!

i've tried wishing her in many different ways that i could, through msn, sms, friendster, blog and so many many more. i just want to fill her with as much blessings and hopes on this special day of hers. i am her bestie so it's only right for me to fill her with as much wishes as possible! the best thing she told me was that i am the one who gave her so many wishes through so many different modes! haha. makes everything i do worthwhile man. she even said that she appreciate it. (:

we're celebrating for her later and we've already gotten the gift for her. hope she likes it eh. anyway, i'll update more about the celebration after this.

and yes fiona, i know you're waiting for the vietnam post! but then, i'm stil working on it and i haven't really edited the pictures yet. i'm very free nowadays so i guess it'll be up soon. don't worry!

meanwhile, to keep you all entertained, please go to ♥ cynthia's blog to take a look at this humorous entry that she wrote about me. it's seriously amusing and it sounds like she's selling me to those single guys out there. haha.

nevertheless, i think she's the only friend who always praises and encourage me whenever i feel down. she's the only one who always let me know how special i am and how good my quality is. she always lets me know that i'm beautiful. love her lots man. thank you for always being there and helping me to grow. (:

this blog is sooooo dead. seriously dead man. updates will be coming in more frequently when i can finally stop being lazy!

new eye candy. yum yum. ♥

i love jia en. she rocks. (:

trust me, i didn't say this. there's a hacker in my blog! hahahahaha.

OHHHH MY GWADDDD.

no one's reading my blog simply because i'm not updating it as frequently anymore? ):

for those who totally have no idea, i am back from vietnam. i'll update the vietnam entry when i've uploaded all the photos from the trip alright? meanwhile, stay tuned.

anyway, i have something to announce to the whole world:

I AM OFFICIALLY SINGLE. (:

i wish i could blog out the whole story to all of you but it's really complicated. in short, we're just too different and we're just simply not meant for each other. we have really different perspectives and thinking and i guess we just couldn't work things out like how other couples could.

i'm guess i'm just too emotionally attached to him and he's just too rational. i guess this explain why it took such a long time for me to delete and throw away everything and how fast it took for him to remove everything from his life. one thinks with the mind and the other thinks with the heart. how can a relationship even carry on like this?

nevertheless, i'll be on the look out for eye candies again! and to all of you, be nice and introduce some pretty boys for me la. muahahahaha.

my dearest friends and family, thank you for all the advices and patience that you've shown throughout this period of time. all the care and concern that you've given is really appreciated. these two groups of people are really the priorities in my life. it's proven from everything they've done. ♥

even though i love him a lot and he's one of the few who've made me devote so much time and effort on him, i'll still let him go. this time, i'm doing it for myself and for my friends. it's not for him anymore.

i guess he will be happy to see such a decision from me because this is really something that he've always wanted. he has always hope that i will see the light eventually.

anyway, i changed my blog song to this current song called rule the world by take that. it's a really nice song and it was the ending song for the movie, stardust. btw, stardust is a really nice movie. if you like fantasy stories then this is really a good choice! i am so totally in love with this song la. ♥



You light the skies up above me
A star so bright you blind me
Yeah
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t fade away
Don’t fade away
Ohhhh

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world

If wars break down, I will come for you
If angels cry oh I’ll be there for you
You saved my soul
Don’t leave me now
Don’t leave me now
Ohhhhh

yea you and me we can ride on a star
if you stay with me girl
we can rule the world
yeah you and me we can light up the sky
if you stay by my side
we can rule the world

Ooooooooooooh

All the stars are coming out tonight
There lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
All the stars are coming out tonight
There lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you

Ohhhhhhhhhh

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world

All the stars are coming out tonight
There lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
All the stars are coming out tonight
There lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
All the stars are coming out tonight
There lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
All the stars are coming out tonight
There lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you

nursing a broken heart.

i'm flying off to vietnam in 9 hours time.

it's been sometime since i've last taken an aeroplane! i hope this will be a fun trip and i will only be coming back on saturday.

btw, i went for a haircut today and compared to the length i used to have, my hair is really short now. i really hope it wouldn't curl but my hair is at shoulder length and if i don't maintain it, it will curl. this would mean that i need to learn how to blow dry my hair everyday after i've washed it. ):

although it's a refreshing change, i still miss my long hair. (oh for fuck sake, hair will grow yy!)

remember to miss me and my hair people!

and yes i will remember to get gifts for all my close friends. (:

will be back soon.

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lesson #3 - big girls don't cry.

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And i foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

La Da Da Da Da Da

cos you'll never know even if i do.