recently, i've been really disappointed with myself. i seem to be wasting my life away as time passes and i haven't been doing the things that i've told myself that i need to do. there's so much that i want to do now, but i'm having a lot of doubts about myself. i don't know whether can i accomplish them and i have so much uncertainty towards my future. i don't know whether is this the path that i would like to take in the future. my future seems to be so bleak. was following my passion a correct move?

i'll speak more about my problems to all of you when i have some concrete solutions. there's just so many of them that i don't even know where to start.

nevertheless, i'll clear up my doubts eventually and continue moving on. i will complete whatever that i need to do and what i want to do. i will stop wasting my life away and make living much more worthwhile. i will definitely find a solution to all these problem, right? ):

finally! some things to cheer me up today!

the first thing would be this photo of sean that i came across in his friend's friendster. it's the ultimate hilarious photo that i've seen of him so far! i even left a comment for him over at his friendster with the photo attached. i hope he doesn't kill me for it cos' i think he most probably will. :\

here's the comment:

when i first set my eyes on this, i was laughing away like crazy throughout the entire night. it's hilarious! are you being attacked by something when this photo was taken? why do you look so shock?



HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

seriously, don't you all think it's funny?

sean, please don't get angry over this alright? at the very least, your photo put a smile across my face after a long and emotional day. (:

the second thing would be something that fabian told me in msn when i was feeling freaking insecure over my problems:

primary lotus: ok frankly
primary lotus: singapore might not place a lot of emphasis on the arts
primary lotus: but u dunno how the social landscape will change in future
primary lotus: govt policies might change everything
primary lotus: alr more emphasis is being put on the arts although the development quite slow
primary lotus: but even if singapore has no future
primary lotus: there's the world out there for u

thank you for those words. they really made me felt much better and put a smile across my face after a long day. (:

over the rainbow, where troubles melt like lemon drops.