Now playing: Janice - Never Let You Govia FoxyTunes all these late nights has finally taken it's toll on me.
i am down with the usual
fever, cough and flu.fret not, the fever and flu is almost gone but the cough bug is still pestering me. i guess it's because i am always talking non-stop to keep my colleagues and friends entertained. that should probably explain why.
this holiday, i have been working my ass off and i've been having many late night outs. i guess this are the only two things that are currently happening in my life now.
working and partying.although i've never clubbed a lot in the past, i have to admit that recently, i've been clubbing much more than usual. i would have to say, it's not a bad thing though cos it's really an eye opener. be it meeting new people every week or observing the way people behaves in a club, it really starts to build up some protection and defenses that i've never had.
i'm slowly beginning to realize the truth about reality and how simple and naive i once was. i would have to say that this is a good exposure. although it might be risky but at the same time, i've learned how to protect myself against different types of people and certain things that can be told and certain things that are meant to be known only to me alone.
i realized that not everyone i just met can actually be trusted fully and sometimes, those people who have walked this long path with me are the ones i should truly open up to. as for those passerby in my life, i guess i should just behave like a passerby in their lives too. instead of always trying so hard to open up myself to everyone, maybe certain things are still meant to be kept. i should be sincere to those who repay me with their sincerity after i've showed mine.
maybe i'm haven't really grown fully to understand the cruelty about reality but at least, i'm learning. at least, i'm not stuck somewhere like how others are. i'm growing for sure.
and i'm glad all this came from experiences. (:
alvin has been calling me from the states for an hour long chat every now and then. it's really nice catching up with him and i really appreciate the morning calls from the states! since we've been on the phone for hours, he was kinda afraid that i can't wake up in the morning. thus, the morning calls. it's really amazing how he can give me morning calls when he's sixteen hours behind us. (:
it's been like years since we've last met and he's really one of the rare treasures i've known in irc. how long has it been? five years? well, that sure is a big feat, considering that we're eight years apart and how hot he is now.
if you're reading this, i just want to thank you for the long distance calls and the morning calls from the states. it's really nice knowing you and remember to show me your coloured tattoos on web cam when they're ready! not forgetting the steam boat and scuba diving trip when you get back from the states.
♥anyway, work has been fine except for some minor grudges i have about
someone at times. despite this, i seriously cannot be bothered because there are much more that i'm looking forward to at work. the environment, the people and the work are things over rides everything. i'm growing more emotionally attached to this place and it's still the best job i've had so far. (:
and ronn kay, thank you so much for everything. i have so much to say but i don't know how to express it to you through speech. thank you for the morning calls and for always being there to hear me rant and complain. you might not know, but all the comforts and encouragement that you've given really did help me to pull through those horrible moments at work. thanks for listening and for keeping me company whenever i needed someone. even though i'm two years older, i've never seen you as a younger brother cos you're really much more mature than me in many ways. you're another treasure that i've found at work. thank you so much.
♥you better remember what you promised me the other time outside our usual slacking spot! (:
sometimes in life, you just need to find the special ones that connects with you. ♥ 
