Back in school for my internship training on a Wednesday morning when I don't have any classes. Got to wake up as early as 7.45 am and that's way earlier than any normal schooling timings I've ever had.
Hopefully, the internship training sets a direction for me in my life because I don't really want to feel so lost on what to do with my future anymore. I want a better life, no longer a normal life. I just want everything to fall into place.
Feeling a little moody today because of some events that's happening around my friends recently and coincidentally, it sets me thinking about my life as a whole.
Just wondering, how come mankind tends to cheat in one way or another? Be it on a large or a small scale, it just tends to happen no matter how long a relationship is. Can there even be any trust between two person once it's being broken? If it's going to be broken, then why should there even be trust to start with?
It just sets me thinking from a women's point of view, how much trust we can afford to put in a relationship and how much we need to hold back at times. Having absolute trust in a person, will it backfire?
And worst of all, I'm beginning to have this screwed up mindset about men and their words because of what is happening around me. I cannot seem to believe and trust whatever they say. It's like every word spoken is just for the sake of saying to either flirt or to make me feel good in a way. Never a heartfelt word spoken with sincerity. It just seems harder to be able to trust their words and their flowery language. Saying it is easy but yet, they can't do anything to prove it with their actions.
Next time, I shall trust actions and never words, for words ain't cheap but free.
I saw something I shouldn't see this morning. Something I should no longer be bothered about. Blame it on my curiosity, it really does kill the cat and it just manage to kill another part of me.
Sigh, why is this happening?
