I think after the sore eye episode, I'm down with a flu. Nevertheless, I'm going to school still. If not, boyfriend will probably kill me for not going. He gets really upset when I don't attend school. He just wants the best out of me, I guess. I can't disappoint him, my loved ones and those who care anymore. Most importantly, I think I've been letting myself down a little too much recently. I'm still not performing like how I should be back then. Life is still not being lived to the fullest.
Like I've said, I've been staying indoors pretty much and I'm kinda cut off from the outside world recently. Today, Cynthia and Nicole came over to my place and we did some work on our FYP. Things are getting a little hectic and complicated, but it's still fine. I know we'll pull it through eventually but it's always the process that sucks big time. Though you learn a lot, but you'll have to go through a lot to gain all those experience as well.
I still have some minutes and an event proposal to complete and to be frank, I don't feel good at all now. My flu is killing me and all this negative thoughts is weighing me down. I'm seriously not in the mood for anything today.
Lonely, isolated, sickly, pessimistic, demoralized, disappointed, upset.
Probably sums me up as a person for today.
I'm going over to my private world.
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